Hotdamm Posted November 3, 2004 Share Posted November 3, 2004 Well..................I'll keep this as short as I can. Being alone is driving me crazy. Here is my situation. I'm 23 years old, I've never had a relationship with, or even kissed a women. Now before you say what kind of anti-social person could this be, let me tell you about myself. I'm a self made man. I started in sales when I was 16 years old. I was very shy in highschool until my senior year. When I got out of HS, I didn't really have the choice of going to college. I didn't let that hold me back. I've made a great carreer out of sales, now I'm the National Sales Trainer for an Electronic Payment Processing company. I've been a sales trainer for 2 1/2 years now, and have enjoyed making a descent salery. I've focused extreamly hard on work, and now I feel like its ruined my life. When I was younger, I used to work 50-60 hours a week to make the money I wanted, now I'm older and have become wrapped up in corp. america. I visit two cities a week for work, I'm home for one day a week. I used to be a fairly social person. I've never had good luck with ladies, I was born with a droopy eye lid (Ptosis). In HS it was a source of huge inscurities, I've since had it cosmeticly improved, but its still not perfect. I always figured that my face/eyes were so unattractive that was the reason I got turned down (the few times I tried to get a date). After HS I figured that if I met a woman she would express some interest in me and get past the visual turn off. I travel all the time now for work, and my social life is falling apart. I end up sitting in a hotel room ever night, sleepless every night thinking about how lonely I am. I've lost contact with most of my friends now, because I'm just not around much. I find myself almost obbsessed with depression and being alone. I really like being a trainer, and the job market for that field has always been slim. I'm thankful to have a good paying job, but I find myself thinking about quiting it just so I can be around more of my friends and mabye one day break my curse of lovelessness. Guys and Gals, I'd really like some advice. I don't want to give up the money (its very good), but I'm so miserable its not even funny. I not a terribly ugly guy (I look good with a pair of sunglasses) and I really long to have a meaningful relationship with a women. It makes me really sad and depressed to see my friends find happieness (some have married, a few even have had kids). I know that sounds bad and all, but I'm actually to the point now that I don't really even want to be around my friends that are couples, it just makes me hurt inside. Thoughts are welcome folks BTW (I'm 6'4", with short brown hair, brown eyes, I'm fairly fit and weigh 195lbs. I think I'm good looking minus the droopy eyelid) Quote Link to comment
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