really bummed out today

[im_the_undead]

it's my boyfriend's..or ex bf's birthday today. we haven't talked in like a week or two. we got in a fight and i

appologized but he'd been blowing me off. so i eventually stopped looking for him and when he looked for me i became unavailable..

to where he got angry and told me to never look for him again.

but that's his usual angry tantrum.

 

anyway i know today is special so i called midnight looking for him.

i put my pride aside and called his jerk friends looking for him.

i thought it'd be sweet to tell him happy bday at midnight.. i know he would've liked it and felt special...

but i couldn't find him. idk where he's at? "no one" does, apparently.

 

and today is also his evil cousin's wedding. she's just an overall fake/selfish person, so she can eat dirt, for all i care..

but i'm just wondering where he's been, where he's at, if any of his family even remembered to say happy birthday?..

since all the hubub is her staged wedding.

i've been really sad all week, all month, just knowing that this day was coming

now that it's here i'm bummed out...... i'm sad i'm not there with him. and it's making me mad because i'm pretty

sure his friends have been getting him messed up...... since that's all they do. probably a strip club here n there.

too bad if i were to ask they'd ALL lie to me.

 

i feel really depressed on this beautiful day

[duke nukem]

Man, it's my birthday, wish my ex was worried like you are haha.

 

But sorry to hear you're down, hopefully some time out of contact will help both of you.

[im_the_undead]

Man, it's my birthday, wish my ex was worried like you are haha.

 

But sorry to hear you're down, hopefully some time out of contact will help both of you.

 

maybe she is? wish i wasn't worried ! -________- ugh

 

happy birthday , btw

[RileyK]

It doesn't sound like he's treating you very nicely, or behaving in a mature way at all...why should you waste a beautiful day worrying about him if he doesn't want you to look for him?

[duke nukem]

maybe she is? wish i wasn't worried ! -________- ugh

 

happy birthday , btw

 

Well, she has a new bf as of early February, but I still think there's feelings there for me. Plus she doesn't really know this guy (he's a tool lol). Not to be selfish, but I'd be a little glad if she was just a little shook up. Hasn't said anything so dunno. But enough from me, thanks!

[im_the_undead]

someone just posted a picture of the wedding on fb -_- i had no idea we had mutual friends. this is seriously the worst day ever... i lost my love and saw my worst enemy and he's prob. there right now.

 

i feel like........ i just got poop thrown at me.

[im_the_undead]

this son of a * * * * * just called me 3 times and sent me a text saying he loves me.

i can't stop sobbing.

after i'd been looking for him like a pathetic little fool all day, since midnight.......he calls right before midnight the next day.

he basically called to say i deserved to be punished for breaking the phone he got me.

he's been "getting drunk" all day supposedly.. and i bet he was even at that evil tramps wedding.

he keeps playing these games with me.. that hurt so bad.

i've never felt so belittled.

i don't want to be so pathetic anymore... he heard me sobbing and i feel so pathetic

[duke nukem]

Wow, what a flaming bag o' douche. I know it's always hard to think bad of the ex (well, usually), but a guy who acts like that doesn't deserve to be with someone like yourself.

[im_the_undead]

Wow, what a flaming bag o' douche. I know it's always hard to think bad of the ex (well, usually), but a guy who acts like that doesn't deserve to be with someone like yourself.

 

thanks

he's been calling me all day! terd. i have no energy left in me to answer him