Personal Posted February 7, 2012 Share Posted February 7, 2012 Hey guys i'm currently 15 days NC with my X its been really tough at times because im currently out of a job and i don't really have motivation to do anything at all at the moment. I do keep hoping she will txt its a complex situation we haven't really been a proper item since march 2011 but we have been dating each other since then, she decided she doesn't know what she wants and shes confused. One minute shes all loved up with me the next she's not, i let her down in the first year of our relationship and i think that still haunts her. She kissed another bloke andbut told me the next day she was really really upset "Please don't leave me,i'm so sorry i don't know why i done it" we spoke and she said during the meet up with this other bloke she was thinking "Well he done this to me" and she didn't feel guilty until the kissed. We tried to work it out and we have spoke about feelings an awful lot, we split up start of jan she found out i went on a date and she messaged me saying how hurt she was and she felt like she didn't know me. We spoke and got dinner together its all very strange. We went NC but after only a day she broke it "Why is this so hard, are you ok?" then a txt 20 mins later saying "I'm sorry ignore that am just drunk" It's my first real love at 25 she has told me she can see us being back together in the future, i stupidly seen an e-mail she sent to a nutual friend 4 weeks ago she had put things in like "i know ill never meet anyone as good looking as personal i'm just so confused am not ready to date anyone else". Last time we spoke before the row she did say even if in a few weeks i feel like its you and only you i want i'd wait a month or two to see if i still have the same feelings for you. So fast rewind 15 days ago we have an ulmighty row and it ends with us both saying nasty things about each other the last txt i sent to her was "You keep telling me to move on you need to take your own advice, dont message me again" And she hasn't its strange. I know all the advice is move on and keep busy its hard to motivate myself at the moment, because she is confused and from the brief message i have put here how do people think she feels? i know its a tough one to ask how someone else feels but any advice would be great. Link to comment
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