Double J Posted November 17, 2011 Share Posted November 17, 2011 I posted a thread about this in the "Pets" Forum but was hoping to get additional responses here. I found my cat -- he was only a year and 5 months old -- lying dead on the street last Wednesday. He had no blood, bruises, or marks of any kind. Since I didn't have a necropsy performed on him, I'll never know if he was hit by a car, died of food poisoning, etc. Both my previous cats were also indoor/outdoor cats, but they lived to be 8 and 15, respectively. This one wasn't so lucky, and it hurts mightily because I found and raised him from a very early age -- he was only a few weeks old when I first spotted him in the bushes in June 2010. (My sisters found and raised my previous cats.) I've carried a lot of guilt this past week. I've pointed the finger at myself and my mom for not leaving the cat inside all the time. I was pretty adamant about it for the first year of his life -- sometimes I had to bring him in by force because he didn't want to come in at night -- but I began letting up the past few months. He had been staying out overnight of late, but he seemed happy doing so. My mom argues that she didn't want to keep him in against his will, and that the cat became awfully aggressive sometimes if kept indoors. I know hindsight is 20/20, and this really isn't anyone's fault. But I really miss him, and it kills me to know that I will never see him grow old. A year and a half is way too young. It's left me wondering how long he could have lived if we'd only kept him indoors. To know that I saved his life and gave him a loving home made me feel good, but I'm still having a hard time coming to terms with the fact that he's gone forever. I feel like I've lost my child, or a little part of me. I don't think I'll ever get over this completely. Link to comment
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