Helpmetoheal Posted November 1, 2011 Share Posted November 1, 2011 I haven't posted here in a long time. Things have actually been going well. You think I'd be happy, but I'm not. I have been broken up with him for 10 months now. No direct contact for 3 months, no contact is impossible because we are neighbours, but I had been dealing. Then wham.... my worst nightmare comes true. The ex is getting married. We were together for 2 years and took things very slow as we had some obstacles to overcome. I am positive that I was a huge part of his recovering and being able to find himself. What I didn't expect is that he would accomplish it and leave me in the process. Apparently he took a family trip the last week of September, went accross the country and met this girl 10 years his junior. He is proposing in November during a return visit. I am not sure if he knows that I know and this is news is breaking my heart. The only positive thing about this is that he will be moving clear accross the country and I won't have to watch this happy life unfold in front of my eyes. I wanted it to be me. Why can't I find my happiness? I have good things happening, I don't know how I am accomplishing it. Its like I'm on auto-pilot. Why can't I see the forest for the trees?? I am looking for some comfort in dealing with these overwhelming feelings. Please don't tell me I should be over these feelings by now, I wish I was!!! Its unbearable and truth be told I am still in love with this man. So many mixed messages floating around, "if you love someone set them free", "never give up on someone you love". I don't know what to do here. :sorrow: Link to comment
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