stlewis1218 Posted October 17, 2011 Share Posted October 17, 2011 So here i am at home posting again. I'm a pizza delivery guy and being in the car SUCKS, when you're this depressed or sad at all. You're stuck in your own head, music doesn't really help considering every song reminds of you of that other person, or its just background noise. trying audio books, but it only helps a little. I'm trying daily affirmations, but I don't really believe myself despite how much I want to. I want personal growth, but now i have to probably drop two of the four of my full time classes because i was so distracted the way my semester started. First she broke up with for the third time this summer, then i get a cancer scare(I'm good). I'm hopefully going to be able to start seeing a therapist next week if i can get an appointment. I don't want to be on meds, but maybe i just need to be for now. I haven't been this depressed since i was in high school, but frankly in high school i never had this much looming over my head. Like I've run out of time. 7 years fora two year degree, pathetic. Living at home..again. Still delivering pizza at 25. I can't stand myself, especially with FB with people i know who now have their PHD's and masters. I've never considered suicide, but I don't see the point to anything anymore. If the end of the world is coming...just get it over with. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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