ramonymone Posted September 1, 2011 Share Posted September 1, 2011 First off sorry for any mispellings the spell check is not working on this computer. Anyhow I come here and post whenever I'm having those days when I'm missing my ex. In about 45 mins I am going to see my ex, not because we are going to give the relationship another chance, but because we have a daughter, and it's my day to have her. Whenever I'm with my daughter there is mixed emotions--hand to god I love this little girl with every ounce of my being, but I am not devoted to her 100%. Reading that last statement makes me feel horrible as a parent. My problem is due to my love for her mother. I know that I'm going to get responses of how I need to get over it, and focus on my daughter, I know this I'm being selfish and I wish to God I was not like this, but when I am with my daughter I'm filled with an emense amount of joy, but at the same time saddened because she is a reminder of the love that once existed between her mother and I. I still love her mother! 2.5 years after the break up, and I still love this women. No matter how many people I date, sleep, or talk to I love my daughters mother. She has moved on, new boyfriend really happy, and I'd be lieing if I said that I was happy for her. GOD I SUCK!!! However, I am very understanding that whatever overly expired feelings that I have for my child's mother, need to be iternalized and that those feelings can never come to the forefront, especially in the presence of my child. I'm a good dad and I love my child, but I wish that when I'm with her (my daughter) that I'm enjoying her 100% and not partially thinking about her mom. Link to comment
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