Day 13 NC

[fwdthinker]

You hurt me deeply.

Really.

Betrayed my trust in you,

the trust that was so beautiful

And pure

and loving

like that of a child.

 

I gave that to you

Because of the past we shared.

Our youth.

The innocence of that time.

 

You betrayed that

With your selfishness

Your brokenness

Your lack of empathy

Your lack of depth

 

I saw beauty in you

You chose to show me the ugly truth

And that has made me so very sad

For you

For me

 

I believe we could have had an amazing relationship

One of love

One that uplifted each of us

One that challenged us in a positive way, to be better

As individuals

And as the two parts of a couple

With God at the head

 

But

How wrong I was

To learn with dismay

And well…horror

That you are just an empty shell

That what emanates from you

Are lies

And games

And just – wrongness

And you feel no remorse

Just a prideful, unfathomable arrogance

The belief that you are “right”

When in truth, you know very well

You misled me

You were truly unkind to me

You lied.

And I did not deserve any part of that

 

 

My feelings for you

What I gave to you

My caring

My tolerance

My patience

My kindness

My love

Was pure

And good

And lovely

 

And you took it

And twisted it

And tried to rename it

into something shallow

and cheap

 

Then you tossed me

and what we had

aside

Without a second thought

without explanation

Just more lies

more promises

broken

 

 

And then

while I waited with hope

You simply..

Vanished

Utter silence

 

leaving me to writhe and squirm

and wonder

and suffer

 

You killed what was being born between us; that love

Just as surely as taking a weapon

And firing it

At the heart

 

You did it purposefully

But without telling me

I had the unfortunate task

Of feeling your coldness

Of feeling that rejection

While I yet still

Lay in your arms

While you had already started buidling

Your self protectice

aversion toward me

this was so you could

rationalize

what you were doing

I knew this

I felt it in my soul

It was awful

 

And the next moment

You are smiling into my eyes

Pretending to love me

And then...gone

Without a word

 

How cold you are

How very broken

how very cruel

 

You should be ashamed

But…you are not

 

And that,

is the saddest part

of all.

 

You will do this again

To the next girl

 

The difference is

She won’t be me.

[furiouspsych]

It won't b u...

 

I like this.

[OptomisticGirl]

i like that ending.

 

Keep it up!