I feel like I could end it all...

[AdreamOrAMemory]

Well first of all I'm a cutter...and most people don't understand the reason for cutting. My reason is because it takes away emotional pain and becomes physical pain. Personally, I can handle physical pain better than emotional pain. Another reason-I hurt myself because I know if I didn't I would go on a kill spree. Seriously. And my boyfriend recently broke up with me. I blame myself completely. Some of the reasons were...I was obsessive(I really don't know what he meant by that), and I got him in trouble alot also. We've went out 4 times already, maybe it was time for it to be over. I mean, we tried and tried to make things work, and I guess it just wasn't meant to be. But I can't help, but thinking about spending the rest of my life with him. I know I'm only 14, but every time I think about him I get depressed. That's another reason he broke up with me. He was tired of me being suicidal and depressed all the time. He's moving to Las Vegas when the school year is over. I'm gunna miss him so much. But sometimes I just wish he would move. So that way I would'nt have to deal with him being here and not loving me like he used to. He says he loves me as a friend, but that's not enough. Just the thought of him loving someone else breaks my heart. I feel so empty without him. And a few nights ago, I cut myself too deep and I passed out or something. I didn't go to school the next day. Pretty soon everyone found out I'm a cutter and started to hate me for it. But do they really think that's gunna help me? I've tried to get help with this but nothing works. And right now I feel like I could end it all. I would, but I'm afraid to die. Because according to some people, your soul lives forever no matter if you go to heaven or hell. I just don't wanna live forever. I wanna be put to rest. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about suicide. I look in the mirror I hate what I see. Most people say I'm pretty. And there are somedays that I agree with that. And somedays where I'm like "Omg." I feel like everyone's life would be easier if I'm not in it. I just make everyone's life a living hell....(it's the truth). Suicide CAN solve problems. Actually, you have no problems. When you're dead, all your problems go away. I feel like my life is going nowhere. I'm not good at anything. No one appreciates anything I do for them. Even when I try to be nice to someone I get kicked for it. When I'm down I get kicked even harder. What should I do? I've tried everything.

 

(Sorry for writing so much!)

 

 

*Never start cutting...it's addicting*

[Happy_Go_Lucky_Heb]

Try this first: link removed

 

If you need someone to listen PM me or MSN me etc, I won't mind.

 

Heb

[michaeltinker]

angel please we love you do not think so little of the child of god that you are!

 

please read my others post and ask me anything!

we are all ONE

because we love you and we care so please

PLEASE DONT HURT US ANYLONGER

 

WOULD YOU KILL ME? OR CUT ME TO SHREADS, OR CRUSIFY ME?

 

THEN DON'T........................................................................

 

 

I HEAR GOD SAYING GO HEB, GO HEB, GO HEB, GO MALINA, GO MALINA, GO ELLE , GO KEL, GO GO EVERYBODY, EVERYBODY, I LOVE ALL MY ANGELS. NOMATTER HOW LOST! NOMATTER HOW MISTREATED!

 

SHINE

mUCH LOVE

mICHAEL

[michaeltinker]

i am a cutter too and i have a lot of the same problems. I may not know exaclty what you are going through(i hate it when people say they know when sometimes i feel like they just don't). But i am here.

 

****yes, never start for any reason, it is addicting********

 

elle, i hope you wern't talking about me?

 

and you still haven't changed your sig?>

 

just kidding, much love

[dpressedone89]

That guy is seriously creepy im a cutter too I understand it

the reason i cut my self is i have so much mental pain that i cant find to deal with turning mental pain to physical pain which will go away my ex gf cuts and we were hanging out we got really depressed we both cut and burnt our selves it is a serious problem and i suggest you try to quit .

i send my luv and sympathy to you

PM me i think we need to talk more

though i want to die i must live because i am the revenge i want on the world