Caterina Posted May 11, 2009 Share Posted May 11, 2009 I fell in love with someone last year. Its very strange to think about because well, it wasn't exactly love, but it was strong...like I violently feel hate and violently feel affectionate for the person still. We can't be around each other and our last talk was unhealthy. In all likelihood he has indefinetly moved on and may even resent me. Such a great introduction, right? I've dated a ton of guys but none of them really got to know me...it seems like a lot of them really just wanted a woman by their side and I happened to fit some sort of requirement level of attractiveness. This guy actually got to know me. I don't know why. He really seemed to understand me to. I don't know why...but he invested a lot in me for some reason. Was he just trying to get sex from me? If he was...why didn't he just lie to me...tell me he loved me? We had a fall out and he likely hates me or is indifferent towards me. I really don't know. He claimed to have cared about me. Its something that everyone wanted me to shut up about...they didn' think my pain over it was really worthwhile and sometimes I feel like I was screwed out of grieving. I never dated him, I just fell for him. I don't feel for any guy like I felt for him...and I'm scared b/c I want it sooner than later. I want love. I am very alone. Link to comment
BriarRose Posted May 12, 2009 Share Posted May 12, 2009 This guy actually got to know me. I don't know why. He really seemed to understand me to. I don't know why...but he invested a lot in me for some reason. Was he just trying to get sex from me? If he was...why didn't he just lie to me...tell me he loved me? We had a fall out and he likely hates me or is indifferent towards me. I really don't know. He claimed to have cared about me. .. No, he cared or still does. Most guys would not invest a great deal of time in someone just for sex - it's too easy to get elsewhere. What was the fall out? Why would you think he hates you? Link to comment
jet_palero Posted May 12, 2009 Share Posted May 12, 2009 He probably still cares about you but is trying to move on. Thats what happens when people break up. Why exactly do you hate him, because you two didn't work out, or did the hate start sooner? Link to comment
Caterina Posted May 13, 2009 Author Share Posted May 13, 2009 I hate him because he pretended to care but did not...and he did it for three years...I hate being lied to. Link to comment
ghost69 Posted May 14, 2009 Share Posted May 14, 2009 i think you might have some connection issue with love = sex with men. but you seem too eager to find someone. Link to comment
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