Help me im in love with my best friend and its not so bright

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Im 16.she is 16.We met about 8 months ago, she has 2 classes with me, and we hit it off pretty good.I fell in love with her within the first few days after meeting her.She had a crush on me to. Well we kind of went out for a few weeks,I got my first kiss, and alot of them I got,and everywhere(even in Kroger checkout line,lol Ill remember that one for a long time ).Things were great for a few weeks until a concert...We were supposed to meet at a Taking Back Sunday concert one day,because me and her both love emo.Well she got there early, and when I got there she was making out with this loser ex-fbuddy she told me she was through with.And I later found out they f'd in the bathroom.Needless to say I left the concert.That was the Worst day of my life EVER.... period.Think about it, this is my dream girl, she's very beautiful,full of personality,and smart,funny,and sweet.I knew she was kinda involved with this loser But I thought she was done with him .Well after a week(maybe not even that long) of not talking to each other, we kiss and make up,I forgave her, and I went on with my perfect little world with my friend/gf.But then later on in the month, I think,(its been awhile) I get a call, at 2:30 in the morning, she f'ed him again at a party my best friend was delivering weed to.Oh my god, worst day of my life No.2.Well that time I was done with her for good.Christmas break went by, I didnt awnser her phone calls even though I wanted to and thought she was out of my life(which was a bad thing) until we went back to school.I thought maybe she would have gotten the picture and not talk to me and maybe I'd eventually forget about her... well the first thing she does when she sees me in the hallway is she runs up and gives me a huge hug and told me how much she missed me.sigh,I fell again,I am so powerless.Things were stable for a while,except no more kisses,I think this where the just friends thing kicked in ... like I said things were stable for a while until she started f'ing him(and then later on a different guy btw) on a regular basis,which wasnt a big shocker to me, I was used to it by then.And this went on for a little while and died off.And it was dead for a long time. and everything went back to semi-normal again(still nothing above friendship though)And it stayed like this for a while.

 

 

^^^^^^^^All that happened a while back.... this is whats currently happening.

 

Last tuesday she decided to screw Jordan(assclown #1) again,which puts me back on square 1.She even went into detail, which I got a mental image that just hurt so so bad.The thought of them two just talking to each other sends me into a frenzy... I cant stand it.Of course I dont mention this to her,I dont want her to know im jealous.

 

 

But anyways,moving on... Everytime something goes wrong, Im ALWAYS there for her to talk to... You would think, after geting treated badly by two idiots,being talked about non-stop at school,and thought of as a wh*** by her family, you would THINK that she would give me another chance when it seems like I'm only person in the world who doesnt think she's a wh***,who doesnt think she's a bad person and cheers her up when she's had a bad day.

 

But now, she's confusing the living hell out of me.She is always flirting with me,tells me how I have perfect lips and face etc.And she always puts her legs over mine in class, or if were in a car she'll lay on me or sit in my lap or something.So she is really sending me mixed signals.I dont know what she wants from me.Another thing that kind of weirds me out, is we get comments ALL the time on what a cute couple we make(its really hard to tell were just friends).Hell it almost IS a relationship already,people say we act like were married.I mean we go everywhere together,theres a little affection there, but were still just friends,which is weird cause we dont act like it.All thats really left to add is more physical contact and a title,everything else is there already. Anyway what would some of you guys do in my position.I dont want to find someone else,because if I wanted to I could,easily.Someone please tell me theres something I can say to make things good again.

[Beec]

She treats you like somethign worthy of only being flushed down the toilet, then you take her back, then she treats you that way again, then you take her back, then she does it again, and . . . .

 

Do you see a pattern here? What are you doing with a woman that abuses you like this? She treats you like this and then begs for forgiveness jsut to do it again. A little flirting, a little attention from ehr and your spine turns into limp spaghetti. Where is your backbone. Stand up to her and don't let her schmooze you into forgiving her. You are going to get nothing but heartache until you figure out she is going to continue to cheat, and either accept it and let her do what she wants, or dump her and make her WORK her way back into your good graces, and not just kiss up to you for a few minutes. Your only other option is to stop being a boyfriend to her and treat her like the mattress she wants to be, sleep on her when you are tired and leave her in the bedroom when you want to do that.

 

Maybe, maybe someday she will learn, but not until you make her.