bit3yerlip Posted June 27, 2008 Share Posted June 27, 2008 im 19, studying advertising. he's at the same age, studying accounting. we just broke up a week ago. we tried to avoid each other so we won't get hurt (because we still love each other). he knows i still love him very much, but he also knows the reason i broke up with him was because he is waaaay too controlling and i feel that we've met the wrong time. i always wished we met later on when we are older, because we would get to tell each other how we used to be when we were 19 and how we went through life back then, full of experience and preference of the person we want to spend our lives with. I personally am into controlling guys like him BUT only when i know im going to be his wife. im also scared that one of us would change next time (personality wise), because we are now at the age where we start to open up our eyes wanting to know everything, where our lives are not stable yet. i seriously didn't want to break up with him to get to know more guys to date. i think he's very different from the guys around me. am i being greedy here? because last nite we couldn't take it anymore, we had to see each other. we talked about how things are going to be better if we're back together. it was convincing to me even when he asked "r u sure u can take it that im so controlling?". i then agreed to get back together. but when i brought him back to my place, he starting telling me what i shouldn't wear to class, and how many times a week i can only go to gym with my girl friends, which pictures i should delete from my facebook and even asked me to delete my facebook account. it made me uncomfortable... i felt the sadness again.... he got the message from the way i look. he understood, so he's giving me 2 more days to figure out if i still want him back. but no, im lost!! i love him and want him but i want my own life. am i being too greedy? how do i know what i want in life? is this love suppose to be more important than what i want to do in life? 1)im so scared to do what i want in life & forget him because he's a great person+i love him. i cant live everyday without telling him about my day and worse still when i face problems. HES ALWAYS THERE FOR ME!!!!!! but he says if we are not going back together he will have to stop talking to me completely because he's letting go the person he loves so much and it hurts ofcourse. 2) im afraid to be his girlfriend again because he has slapped me once. i always believed that once a man lays his hands on u, means its over. but this time its too tough...he sounds like he's not going to slap me again. im also afraid that he's going to control me more the longer we're together. everyone around me warns me to stay away because controlling freaks are dangerous. im confused ;( i cant even type well to what i feel now. tell me anything... thx so much Link to comment
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