neva_black_n_white Posted September 29, 2003 Share Posted September 29, 2003 hey everyone. just the way im feeling.... its called I hate me! when they see the tears roll down you face dont they see? understand or realise that you are more than an object when a line is crossed you do break! i hid from my emotions i covered all my tracks became a person everyone else created but look at the effect from that i hate me i hate life and most of all i hate everything i wanted from life! i once knew who i was where i am what i wanted yet still im drying these tears i hate to be scared and i hate to be nothing but me me! even loved ones know how to turn these screws too many emotions to control and too easily changed so as the old saying goes.... you can satisfy some people some of the time most people most of the time but never all of the people all of the time ---------------------------------------------- dont you hate how you know how to give advice know what to do but when you need that advice you dont listen despite the amount of times you try make others to? thanks for listening. kel p.s. i dont usually feel like this; thats why im scared xx Link to comment
carbine Posted September 30, 2003 Share Posted September 30, 2003 hey , i read ur topic earlier but i was to afraid to write worrying i might say something wrong but no one responded yet so il do my best , there have been many times where i felt just like you do , maybe you are clinically depressed , has something tramatic happened to you ? plz e-mail if you want to chat or get in touch with me email removed Link to comment
neva_black_n_white Posted October 1, 2003 Author Share Posted October 1, 2003 hey carbine, thanks for the response, i wouldnt say something traumatic has happened its just things building up, things that have gone wrong, been said and been done. yeah i can talk i guess. and well...thanks. kel Link to comment
al_zaine Posted December 25, 2005 Share Posted December 25, 2005 I hate Christmas. Everything is bullsh*t, we're slowly killing earth and all its tenants, the corporations are draining all resources for our needs, although they arent really our needs-we only think they are because television shows encourage certain livestyles. I'm so fed up, nothing makes any sense. I have no place in society, and its mainly because i don't want a place in society, it all a farce. Everything i hear is nothing new, nothings original, fresh, its just all regurjitation. Sometimes i'll mention in discussion with friends that i like something(mobile phone or some sorta gadget) or that im interested in something, when really i'm not, otherwise there wouldn't be anything to talk about, and I hate myself for it slightly because it pathetic and I guess self degrading. I just want to understand what life is and why its here and why we're here, but i can't seem to make sense of it. Link to comment
lonely days Posted December 25, 2005 Share Posted December 25, 2005 Al zaine. I totaly understand what your saying, I feel the same way, what the hell is the point of everything, Were supposed to go to work 9 to 5 and make money just so we can have a house to sleep in and a car to get back to work the next day, it's really just turned into one big p1ssing contest to see who can get the most stuff. When none of it really means anything, If you don't have a big house or a nice car your worthless in alot of peoples eyes.... Link to comment
ShySoul Posted December 25, 2005 Share Posted December 25, 2005 Kell, nice poem. It scares me to that I sometimes feel like that. But I try to keep hope and see points of light in a sometimes dark world. al_zaine, I posted a thread on the real meaning of Christmas with a couple of inspirational and heartfelt stories that might put you back in the Christmas spirit. I'll get the link for you in a minute. Link to comment
Bkwarior Posted November 24, 2006 Share Posted November 24, 2006 WOW , that touched me , that is how i feel actually ! Link to comment
AnotherBrokenDoll Posted November 24, 2006 Share Posted November 24, 2006 Neva, i hadn't read some of your work in a while and its good to see it back up there! Great work as usual. I think you expressed a feeling we all experience, one that can break so many people. Lovely work! Link to comment
neva_black_n_white Posted November 26, 2006 Author Share Posted November 26, 2006 LOL. this was from about a year ago. i dont feel like that at all now. but thankyou very much. ive just read through it and hate it. its good because it was an expression and theres underlying structure but it doesnt tell me a story i can remember. maybe thats good. but i think its rubbish lol (not looking for any "oh no its not comment" hehe) it just it xxx Link to comment
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