Ive seen what your going through. One of my best frineds,ill just call him by his first name, Tony, has gone through almost the same thing. He doesent have many desises,but he has AADHD very badly. Taking ridilen doesent even help it that much. He lives with hes dad that doesent pay that much particular attention to him and his step mom doesent eather.His real mom is a drug addict and is in and out of rehab all the time and he hasent seen her in years. When he was 14 or so,he tryed to kill himself by slitting his wrists and had gone to a place much like yours. I finnaly saw him about a year later when he came back. Now he is happy with his life. He has a job,a girlfriend and of course,the awesomeness of me! WEll the moral is that things can only get brighter when at the worst...just try to find things that make you happy and try to forgive and forget things that have made your life miserable...good luck to you,though you shouldent need it
