Mills

My first boyfriend.. from when I was in high school - treated me horribly and broke up with me. Being my first boyfriend I was pretty upset... years later.. when I was in college - he added me on facebook and saw me at the bar, he tried contacting me and even sent a message apologizing for his behavior, and that I was beautiful and had a lot going for me. I eventually blocked him on facebook because he creeped me out. lol Another guy I had a thing for about 4 years ago, did not want anything to do with me. He was the player type, barely gave me the time of day. Now he's my friend and he's witnessed me going through this time with my current ex boyfriend.. he sent me a text the other night saying "you are gorgeous and deserve so much better than that and I'd take you out but I know i lost my chance." I didnt even reply, I don't have feelings like that for him anymore. Ya snooze ya lose, ya know? A 3rd guy, actually the guy i lost my virginity to... treated me like crap, basically just used me ... a few years later asked me out to lunch sometime. I declined. All of these men I just dropped like a bad habit and stopped gracing them with my presence or attention anymore. One day they realize what they lost. As of last night I decided not to contact my ex anymore and completely disappear off his radar.. it's been 3 months of me pining for him. I hope that one day he will come crawling back and realize how he messed up and what he's lost. Only time will tell.

you dont show that you care if im in your life or not.. im tired of being blamed for everything - being called crazy, a * * * * * * * , annoying, telling me you like that im laid back, but im a push over, saying i can take jokes but if i let you get away with too many jokes, everything is always wrong.. so if you dont care then i am just disappearing and you can see life without me around at all.

With the NC, did you just completely stop talking to him out of nowhere and just ignore him when he tried or did you tell him you werent talking to him anymore?

My ex sent me a random drunk text at 4am this morning.... ughhh whyyy

I hate that! One minute Im like eh idc if we get back together.. then an hour later Ill miss him and want to talk to him... then in another couple hours Ill get pissed. It's so confusing.

i initiated no contact with my ex yesterday.. his birthday is in a couple weeks.. do i just send him a text saying "happy birthday. hope you're doing well." ??

Day 2 .. sooo hard.

Ugh Im on Day 1 also.. we've been broken up for a month but hes been talking to someone else (rebound girl I believe) and i couldnt handle still being in his life for him without him being in mine the way i want him to. so i told him we wont be talking. sucks, i always tried to fix things too but you just have to believe that if its meant to be then they will fix it themselves and open their eyes.. and if its not meant to be then at least you will be healing and moving on.

I broke down and talked to him again just now... told him he hasn't seen what its like to not have me in his life bc Im still there and around. And he has the best of both worlds... the one with me in it and the single one at the same time. He agreed.. so I said well I need to let you see what it's like to miss me and not have me in your life bc its not fair to me. So I said I wont be in your life for right now. Sucks

Day 1 My ex dumped me a little over a month ago and we've been going back and forth since. Recently been telling me he misses me and our relationship, but still does not want to get back together.. after finding out he's been talking to someone else I told him I can't be friends and we won't be talking anymore unless its about working things out. I just cant do it. He said he hates that he hurt me and this hurts him too. Its so hard.. I really just want him back... but I realize I was still in his life giving him attention but without him making any commitment.. so I had to cut it off.