i'm a girl, i'm 16 and i'm in love with my best friend. although we've only known each other for a little over 6 months, i feel that i'm closer to him than anyone else i know, and he feels the same about me. ever since i first became friends with him back in march i knew i was attracted to him. i've seen him date many girls, including many of my friends. i found it strange that i would spend more time with him than they did. everyone at our highschool already thinks we're going out because we're always together. whenever he goes out places, even with other friends, i'm always with him.
i didn't think he knew that i had been attracted to him all this time, but we were talking on Monday night, and he asked if i still had a crush on him. i was really surprised that he even knew that i did, either that or he was bluffing just to see what i would say. so me, being stupid, told him that i was definitely attracted to him, and that i had been since i met him. i also told him that he was my best friend, and that nothing that happened between us could change that. which it won't. i'll always think of him as my best friend no matter what.
i guess i should tell you that before that, i guess last thursday, i found out that he had been cheating on his girlfriend (who is another one of my really good friends)
after monday night, i was really confused about everything that was said, so i was incredibly depressed. he was there as usual to comfort me, which was strange because he was the one who brought it on this time. i still found him comforting though.
wednesday we had another talk about what our relationship was with each other. it was clear that we are more than friends, but not boyfriend/girlfriend.
so last night was a school dance, and i went with him as his "date". for a while i was just dancing with two girl friends of mine (heh..and alot more than just dancing..) and finally i got him to dance with me. even during the dance our friends came up to us and asked us if we were sure we weren't going out, and they were very surprised to hear us say we weren't. on the way home from the dance we were talking in the car about what happened that night (between me and the two girls i was dancing with) and he put me on "kissing probation" because i was kissing those two girls at the dance, and i'm guessing he didn't want to see me making any more enemies because of who i was seen kissing. so i asked him who i was allowed to kiss, and he said only him.
OK, so we were all over each other at the dance, when anyone tried to dance with me, he'd step in and say "no! she's mine!". we did some serious hardcore flirting all night.
but still, we're both confused about whether or not we're going out, and i've never kissed him either. please help me!