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Nice, you have good taste as well! I do like RDR2...have you played GTA games? V is good, I have that one. Yes, I was referring to ESO. I still have a slight urge now and then again to get back into it but ah, what a time suck. I was solo'ing it all too, just using group finder to find strangers so I could raid dungeons. That was it. Sims is fun - have you ever played it on a PC? I did meetups quite often for board games. Yep, all in person. That's something I hope to get back into. Covid killed a lot of that for me. I do play games with a couple "safe" friend, namely an ex bf of mine and his (now long term) gf. Each time I get ready to jump back into in person board gaming, the local cases spike! ARGH.

Playstation (4) and Nintendo Switch. I plan to get a PS5 in the future but that's a ways off. I play mostly solo games at the moment. Used to play ESO but it got to be too much of a time suck for me. I like FPS but not really into COD too much, I like games like Hitman and really anything by Naughty Dog or Rockstar Games. I've played a lot of the "classics", like the Bioshock series and such. I also like some VR games here and there. I also love open world type games, think Breath of the Wild and the like. Story based games like LA Noire are fun too. Sometimes just like to rot my brain with something like the Sims 4. So I'm pretty solo when it comes to videogames - multiplayer, I'm all about board games in person!

Haha, I'm flattered but I am just barely figuring things out myself 😅 I'll tell you, YouTube and Google searches are awesome. I've been learning a lot. I do know my limits though - I don't mess around with electrical panels, gas connections, things like that. Lo, I'll find a way to share some pics with you, somehow, or even on here. I'll figure it out. I definitely want to show off my new place once I get things set up. My walls are still bare but I'm still figuring out where to hang everything I want to. My den/entertainment room will have more of the "casual" stuff, like a couple of GoT banners, some video game stuff, etc. Everywhere else will be old art and replica old art, mostly European but some other things as well. Confused medieval chic indeed! My furniture is all really old too - mostly 100+ years. Nothing expensive, just old. Beatles - yes, you are correct. I had the electrician come and drill the hole for me. I already determined where I wanted the hole to be but I Wanted him to drill it as I don't have a bit long enough and also, if there were an old transformer within the wall (from an old doorbell setup), I'd rather HE be the one to figure that out, not me, haha. I paid $200 for a service call and really got him to do a lot, many little electrical things I needed done, I made a list. After he made the hole, I used putty to "cap" it until I figured out the setup. I finalized my research and settled on a doorbell and installed it. I then drilled a small hole near the floor so that the plug-in transformer could be threaded through and be plugged in the outlet in the OTHER room. I then fastened the wire to the wall along the bottom once set up so it kind of blends in/is out of the way. Chime is plug-in, in a central location in the house so I can hear it downstairs and upstairs. I do really like this house. Lo, tell me more about yours!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ixEejeYnB0M Son, Father, Holy Ghost The thing I miss the most Is someone to look at me, not through me Like an unwanted host Lifting a formal toast to Someone lucky not to be here Birth, school, work, death, hide your foul breath Get laid off twice a year Whatever was my crime, I have done my time Now I'm free to disappear Like a ghost Take an extra shift, stairs instead of lift First stroke at thirty-eight Wear that fair-trade silk, decaf with non-fat milk Maintain your ideal weight Birth, school, work, death, hide your foul breath Get laid twice a year Whatever was my crime, I have done my time Now I'm free to disappear Like a ghost Son, Father, Holy Ghost The thing I miss the most Is someone to talk to me, not about me

He sounds a little micromanage-y but...you've only been there 2 weeks. There are some growing pains with new jobs and how people treat/relate to you during this new period may not last. Your boss may be a little harsher/forward with you because you're a new employee and have not established yourself yet as a good, trustworthy employee. If you enjoy the job and like the benefits, I would definitely stick it out, at least a few months. Take criticism well, don't react emotionally, and let things roll off your back. And, of course, work hard and diligently and give it a little time. You may well see that he backs off, either because you have established trust and/or he finds a new target to micromanage.

The fiber company hadn't yet come to my street yet (lack of demand? I don't know) but they were on an adjacent street. I kind of pestered the company to get a line/box out to my place and was willing to pre-sign a multi-year contract. The alternative is the local cable monopoly company, which is notoriously expensive and unreliable, so that's why I pushed so hard. I started pushing for it before I officially closed, knowing that they wouldn't need to access the property until later. I had to wait a long time (months) but it was finally done. I was willing to pay for installation costs that went over/beyond too, but I didn't end up having to do it. I have a box installed on the outside of my house now and had the install guy drill a hole for me, leave tons of wire, and I took care of the rest. I ran the wire to a more "central" area of the house and secured the wire along the walls the whole way so the actual fiber terminal is in a good place. I've done a number of smaller projects by myself recently, namely: creating my own "hardwired" doorbell setup with 24v transformer, rewired a new thermostat with a c-wire workaround, bought and installed a new dishwasher and then rerouted the original draining pipe, replaced/modified sink plumbing to accomodate "modern" litter box (no scoop), installed most of my bathroom fixures (shelving, vanity cabinets), etc. I have a bunch of things that I am getting to, all in time.

Yeah it's remarkable! I've already made some big changes to my house that will definitely increase value (new HVAC - furnace, A/C, fiber internet connection, etc.) I do see myself staying for the forseeable future.

Well, it's not really a "date" exactly but I think it's a great idea. You can both be online and chat with each other as you build something together, or next to each other. Could be fun and it seems like a good, low pressure way to talk and get to know each other. If she is the shy sort, she may go for it. I play some Minecraft but not a ton but if I were on Hinge and received that offer from a guy, I'd probably jump on it. Like I said, easy way to get to know each other and have a conversation while you do something fun/relaxing together.

They really are. I'm feeling better than I have in a long time. Despite everything and the chaos in the world, I've been feeling really good and I'm in a great place in my life. About to finish my graduate degree (it may not be my last, we will see!), new homeowner, weight loss...it's really coming together for me. What's going on in the world is upsetting and I do listen to the news (via radio/podcast mostly, not TV) everyday but at the end of the day, I decided I need to focus on my own life and making myself happy so that's what I'm doing. I think other people can tell I'm in a good place because for the first time in, well, I don't know how long, I had 2 different male strangers recently, about my age and not bad looking, cold-approach me in public (stores, I was doing errands both times), make conversation, and then ask me for my number. I politely declined, stating that I had a boyfriend (which isn't true, I'm single but I'm not looking) but I complimented them for taking the chance and approaching me. I said something along the lines of: it takes real guts to cold approach a woman and while I can't reciprocate, I do appreciate the gesture. I didn't want to embarass them or turn it into a bad experience, you know? I mean really, it does take guts. I won't lie, I'm getting the urge to find a casual sex partner/FWB. Not dating, sex only. I know I've said that I wouldn't consider it but I'm thinking with the right person/setup, it could be good for me. I said that during a time that I didn't think I was going to forgo dating but here we are. I'm going to be hitting my sexual peak soon (apparently) and I want to take advantage and make myself feel good.

Almost done with school and I'm in the process of looking for jobs. I'm hoping to have something lined up (aka offer letter in hand) so that I can have something to start ASAP once I am licensed at the state level. I can't wait to leave my current workplace - my boss has definitely been making things more toxic there with her weird, emotion-laden group texts to EVERYONE, her inconsistent, contradictory statements, her backstabbing and spreading of personal business. Not mine, of course, I wouldn't tell her anything unless I actually WANTED that information shared on a megaphone. But it's pretty sick to have her come up and be gossiping about everyone and anyone and to know that she's probably doing it to me behind my back as well. In better news, I finally am getting my proper bed all set up. Guess who is getting a massive (king size) bed to herself? Yeah, this lady.

Bolt, It's not just you - the pandemic has hit millions hard in ways that I don't think we fully understand yet. It is fraying the last of our nerves and it continues on, with cases going up. Just when you think it's done, it's not. Practically everyone I know, myself included, has had to either go up on their current psychiatric medications and/or add another medication in order to manage their symptoms. You're not alone. I went up on one of my antidepressants in Spring 2020. It was just starting to hit the US and at that time, I wouldn't see my family again for many months so I asked my doctor for a boost. I doubt I'll go back to the dose I was on before. Too much has changed.

"Surface Pressure" in Encanto I am embarrassed to admit how much I relate to this song.

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I keep meaning to and then life happens. Things have been going well for me, still busy as all hell. House is really coming together. I feel very cozy. I'm still in disbelief that I managed to buy a house, at times muttering "a m---f--ng house!" under my breath. It's so quiet here and in a smaller town, it is indeed safer.

I've been here quite a while, although not as long as some...almost 12 years? When I joined, I was barely out of my teens. Rough around the edges, deeply dissatisfied with many things in my life, still trying to figure things out. Cocky at times, and not at others, inconsistent and in Flux at times yet stubborn and hard-nosed. Seraphim can attest, I was a (Un)holy terror. I still had a lot to learn. At the time, I was in a relationship with a man who was almost 40 years my senior and was feeling rather ostracized. We were together for a couple years, no regrets. He and I still talk to this day - looking back, it was a nice relationship and he's a good man. ENA did not give me the reassuring udder rubs to my ego that I was looking for at the time but I got so much more. I am now in my early 30s and so much yet so little has changed for me. I can't say I'm fundamentally different. I am in a much better place mentally, I've chilled out, and I learned to let things live. Experience has smoothed out my rough edges but I'm still touch as nails.

I love my new house. Still getting things ready and such. It's been a struggle, had to ask for a few extensions on some achool assignments but luckily my professors are understanding and told me to take all the time I need. Hanging in there. Eager to get done with school. Thinking of taking some time off in the spring.

That's just insane to me! 😳 My mortgage (including taxes/home insurance) is about $1k / month and I have almost double the space. I guess it's true what they say: "location, location, location" I am all moved into my new house. I'm officially a homeowner. Feels fantastic, I'm really happy.

I love history too. 😀 I've grown up in an old house and now I am buying an old house. 1800s in fact. Can't wait to look up its history once I'm in there. Solid house! I can't imagine fitting more than 1-2 people in such a place! 4 adults - what?! Luckily, there isn't much I have to do to the new house. I can't wait to get all settled. I can't believe I was lucky to stumble onto this.

Oh man, I'm sorry to hear that, bolt. My current apartment is 700 Sq feet but I used to live in a 250-300 Sq foot studio with an ex for a while, so I do remember those days. Of course I'm sure you're in a more popular, resource-rich area. I'm going more rural but not desolate. I'm within pretty easy driving distance from a big city (in the top 50 US cities, not top 20 or 25) so I can't complain. Also near some water, lots of history, shops, etc. It's sort of overlooked, not that I'm complaining.

Haha, that's totally me, lo. 🙂 I have so, so many pieces of artwork, some genuine replicas too, woodcuts too! I buy a lot of my art from an older artist that I've followed for years - I have 10+ pieces of his, woodcuts from different countries, mostly Germany, from 1500s-1600s. I have run out of space in my current place but I will have more than enough room in my new home - and I'll definitely fill that up too.

I always feel like a child when I see other people's interior designs 😅 My design aesthetic is...well, I don't know how to describe it other than "eccentric museum curator". I have a rug similar to this, getting another one. Also goes well with some dark leather furniture I have.

GUYS, GUYS, GUYS, I GOT MY DATE. I AM MOVING VERY SOON. I AM GOING TO HAVE A HOUSE.

Life is going OK. About to close on the house. Feeling good about it all, just waiting on attorneys to finish their part and I'm set. My health has been not so great, lately. My weight has plateaued but I have been unable to exercise, working extra. Oh well, as soon as I start working out, it falls off again. My eating habits are poor right now in that my kitchen stuff is packed so I'm basically living off cold cuts (not the salty, cured kind), cheese, and some fruit. Blah.

Depends on who you are. Are you part of the Pakistani community? Are you a member of the Royal family? Then yeah, it's probably not considered inappropiate. However, the UK has definitely adopted a more Western (read: American) attitude towards such relationships. So, outside of a couple communities, it is looked down upon and regarded as incest. It is viewed similarily as those in the US: something that backwards, desperate "poor" people do. Personally, I think if you want biological kids in the future, OP, this is a non-starter. If you read the literature out there, there are claims that it isn't as dangerous to have children with a first cousin. That's true but the genetic risk is still double overall. Now, overall that may not seem like much but it depends on the family history and the genetic disorders involved. It could be actually quite devastating. Look, I'll try to be brief here: I know what it is like to care for someone for whom you really shouldn't have feelings but do. I don't want to go into details. But you need to put those feelings down for a bit and think "Is this worth it". There are some bells in life that you can't unring and while you may be able to keep secret, it could devastate your life if they were found out. And that's just assuming you get that far - she may not even share the same feelings. Yes, she looks at you but you're looking a lot at her so how do you know that she's looking at you in the same way and not in a "why is my cousin looking at me like that" sort of way? I am not telling you what to do here. I am asking you to take a serious pause and consider is at stake in progressing. Is this really worth it? If you have ANY inkling that it is not, which I think you do because you posted here, then you need to back it up and find someone/something else to distract yourself with. As for the shame, there is no shame. You can't help what you feel, only what you do. Judge yourself for your actions, not your feelings, because your actions are what define you.

I know a few people but that number is dwindling down and quickly too. God, I hit the jackpot with this place. I can't believe it sometimes. It's not that it's too good to be true but that I was able to pay a FAIR price. I guess that's the key: look for houses around the holidays. Fewer people looking and who wants to move in the winter? Well, hell, I don't want to either but if it leads to paying at least 60-80k less, sign me up. I'm hiring movers anyway. Breakables (wall art in frames) and my electronics (consoles, etc.) and cat and cat-related accessories are the only things going in my car.

That's good that she has a reliable way to communicate with you. I'm sure it's still a lot to deal with, trouble sleeping, etc. Just hang tight and know that you have reassured her and that she knows how to reach out if she needs to. She is in a safe place with resources (meds, therapy) abound so she may be focusing more on that right now and trying to get her head back into a better place. You are doing the best you can do for her and you should take solace in that when those insecurities creep up.