EveningStar21

TO the world of un believers that thought you could never get your ex back... WE are back together! And WE are totally more IN love then WE were before. Also WE are going to have a future TOGETHER! WE are going to get married, have a beautiful babies, and live happily ever after! LOVE to everyone....... MANDA

Ok so Fri Aug 1, I went out and hit the town! 'Cause I am single and I have alot to offer a guy...so I went out the bar(s) and guess who I ran into? Yep, my ex who proceeded to bitch me out in public. While I sat there and took it, a whole hr of sh** went down. And that was it. He just wants his money that I "owe" him. But there is a wieght that has been lifted off my shoulders. He said that he needs time and space. And since I do care and do still love him that is what he gets for now. And I did lie..only 2, but he nailed me both times. I do not usually lie, but I got to thinking about it and I came to the conclusion that I was testing him. Because all my other relationships didn't work out just cause I "did" something wrong or said something wrong. And there wasn't nothing wrong with our relationship until I did lie and then I told him the truth. I now know that trust is a very hard thing to get back in a relationship. He trusted me to tell him the truth and I broke that trust. Which I don't know if I shall ever get back. If I do I shall be a very very very lucky girl. For it is all that I can do not to think about what was done and what was said. Doing well... manda

mmm. he says a little gay? but i could be wrong. but he also could be a virgin? but i could be wrong.. just tell him all that what you just wrote out here and see what he has to say.. communitcate with him--if you care for him at all... then TALK TO HIM!! L8 manda ps. i'm not a guy but I have alot of guy friends...lol

I almost always do what my mommy says-- and what she told me on that kind of subject was Go to sleep and things will look better in the morning. and that is what i have to say...and life is totally worth living. look into a childs eyes and see what they see..never ending happiness. so look into yourself and smile for you were a child once with unending happiness. and not a care in the world. life is precious...take care of it you don't know how much it is worth until it is gone.... Sincerely, amanda

U know what girl, BF's come and go..but FAMILY is where it all is, and where it shall all end. Never let anyone hold you back in what you do, say or dream. Just because they are to afraid to go out in the world and do something with thier life, doesn't mean you have to be like them! Never say never and DON"T ever give up! And don't be afraid to FLY! Manda Ps. Dump the chump--and my EX plays vids.

I'm screwed....there is not a chance in hell or heaven that he would want to be with me. Honesty is the best policy and I F'ed it up. So your right I deserve what I dished out. Life is all about chances and I'd just wish for the second chance that I shall never get. But you have to realize if he came to me tomorrow and told me that he is seeing someone else. I would have to accept it because that is what I get for not being honest. But I do think that he acted a little harshly and that all his ex-GF's makes me look like a saint. But I just did something very stupid...I wrote him an email, saying all the stuff that I could say because I was very distraute and crying while we were talking on the phone. So my bad...I lied. I shall live my mistake in my heart until I die.... Manda

Sleep where? At my friend's houses that weekend or with all my sisters friends at the house? The house because my sister was staying the night and she was my ride. And the friends house because there was no designated driver, I was being safe??? i really don't think I have a reason or excuse for what i did, i just don't know what to do.. i love him and i haven't had a REAL relationship in 6 yrs! So I guess I was put in my place. This is really hard on me because he didn't say that he forgives me. I am big on forgiveness. Plus I am a fixer-upper I have to fix it-- if it is broken and try to make it work. And I took a chance on love and him. So I guess this is my bad. And I deserve what I get. "To err is human to forgive is divine." manda ps. I didn't know hanging out with my friends would make him jealous.

good i thought i was going crazy.. thanks for the reassurance, Manda

I didn't SLEEP with any GUYS. AT ALL --I don't cheat. He dumped me 'cause I slept AT a guys house, with 6 other people. Who were all in relationships with the person that they were sleeping with. I slept on the couch(s) the whole weekend. Inless you consider that cheating. LOL I think that is why..dunno he wasn't really clear. I want to ask but I don't know! LOL anything else manda

OK here is the story as it goes-- I left for the weekend to go to the Rodeo. 8) Fri and Sat I was there got really drunk both nights. Ended up with some HS friends afterwards, both nights. I called my BF (now ex) Sat morning. Chatted everything was fine. Then I went to the movies with my sister and her BF, Sun night. talked earlier. Then Monday night WE all ( sis and friends) went to the river, all of us spent the night at Sister's friends BF's house with 'rents. Didn't call 'cause I didn't feel like it. Well he called my sisters cell and left a msg didn't get it until way later. Got home called BF got into a discussion on where I had been and what I had been doing. He asked about Mon night I lied and said that the girls and guys slept apart. I was the 5th wheel in this whole sitution. I lied until I couldn't lie any longer then I said here is the whole truth. I told him what I did the WHOLE weekend. He kicked me out of the apt and broke up with me. Then the next day he drops off all my stuff in the lawn of my 'rents house. Where I was staying for the weekend. ok so my question is ... i lied to him, just 'cause earlier in our relationship I told him stuff in confidence and he got jealous. SO that is why I lied to him this time. Back to the question... I lied then told him the truth does that make it right for him to JUST dump me like that? Just curious... manda