Eric,
What the hell is WRONG with you? When you first started seeing Abby you had insticts going off left and right. You could SEE she had issues and was someone to proceed with extreme caution with.
BUT, you made the choice to date her and become involved, and you believed her sweet tender words becauuse it had been so long since someone had said those things to you. The promises made "we will never hurt each other" "forever" and such all coming from her mouth.
Eric, you had red flags going up because she wanted to go so fast. She was saying she loved you within a week and was pressuring YOU to say the same. She pushed to not have the distance in the relationship, and you allowed her to start the process of moving up to Haines with you.
And all the while, you saw her son behaving in without boundaries and she sarted looking at you as a human ATM. But still you believed. And then she said she was most likely not able to get pregnant due to losing an ovary during the dlievery of her son, and you believed her. And then she was pregnant. She emailed and joked and made fun happy words about being pregnant, but when it happened and YOU KNOW SHE TRIED INTENTIONALLY, all hell broke lose and you weren't allowed a voice.
COME ON ERIC, you made the decision that she wsa wrong for you and YOU had begun ending the relationship. So why are you now wanting her back? Why are you clinging to this bad relationship you wanted over? It is because you are scared, a bit anchorless and tired of being alone. You have been down this road before and are afriad of the time it will take before somoen else is attracted to your fun nature and your passion for the wilderness. But right now all that is gone and you are alone a adrift, you aren't even sure where you are going to be this winter.
And you miss the IDEA of a stable home with her and her son, having someone home when you finsih work, and juist sharing your life with someone. But she wasn't the one Eric. She lied and played games. This after she said she would never play games.
Eric, you need to grow a spine and get back into life. Stop looking behind you and move forward and live in the moment.
Be a good man, and remind yourself that you can create a new life somewhere else. Juneau is not the place for you, it is her home. And you must now leave her behind and think of a fresh start. It sucks but it is what you have to do.
Eric
