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What can I say guys, I think a little update is in order. Outside of one minor facebook look slip up(one quick look hit me hard for a hour), I really have taken great strides in moving past my ex. Havint msg her for over 5 months(she only sent me a few text's so its was easy), have no real items of hers besides a few gifts she bought me throughout our relationship, I have nothing to remind me of her. I actually saw her new bf(the guys who she cheated on me with) many times at bars, and caught a very quick look at her(no eye contact) while at a bar the other night-and you know what? It had very little impact on me. There are some things which are dangerous to my contact though. Firstly, since I was still on pretty friendly basis with alot of her housmates(living in a small rez) I have no qualms about catching up with them(even her closer friends which I never had issue with). Part of the reason for this because I don't feel like isolating myself from people I get along with, just because they mark a connection to the ex. Secondly-well I just feel like i'm better look& in better shape then ever before.. Still I know i'm playing a dangerous game but really, I see it as her not having control over my life any longer. Another downside is that meet anthor amazing girl who seems to be highly attracted to me(well..we knew each other all summer and slept together first night I was back in town). Again, there are a few downsides to this-firstly the whole relationship is kinda in a drama situation(long story), and she somewhat reminds me of the ex. Now I'm just putting this second part off as just that kind of girl being my type/.. I already accepted that this little fling might not turn into more because of this and really i'm looking elsewhere just incase. Anyway long story short, is everything in my life completely golden? No. But between LC with the ex(facebook visits.. ), and feeling pretty damn good about myself I think i'm pretty much moved on. The biggest concern I have is that I still put far too much of my happiness based on whether I have a girl in my life, and having this new girl there to distract me is pretty much a cruch for facing the ex and her bf after all this time... Keep at it guys,

Your right., I just wish I could really reach a point where I could get to the point where I didn't do things to receive a reaction from my ex. I feel almost like everything I do is in some small way just a attempt to get a reaction from my ex. I kept her on facebook(she added me shortly after the breakup) just so that I could make it look like I was loving life, posting pictures to prove to her that I was fine..(recently after months I finally removed her). Kept my new cell in my msn name just so that she would know where to call... I'm on the path to recovery but...its going be a rough ride having to face her now in a month(back to school)... But anyway your right, all these actions just to just a reaction from a ex destroys the healing process.

Well actually its due to this site that its somwhat on my mind... Its my birthday and I keep seeing posts concerning ex not contacting them durning their birthday. Well its the night of my bday, i'm half cut but a part of me is a little hurt that thseres no happy birthday from my ex. Its been like 4 months since I contacted her( a month and a half since her last msgs which I ignored). I've seen remarkable progress in the last few weeks. Finally out of a semi-self pity stage i've put myself in all summer and really am moving on. Still this really marks the last real bridge for me. Any doubt about where we stand is confimed.

Lost track of days.. Been kinda off track of the recovery process ever since I received a few out of the blue(after two months of no attempts at contact)-ignored them, but now just been asking if it was the right thing. Just asking how was work/where I worked(guess that would lead to how I have been doing since we spoke after over two months apart). So I went a few weeks back in the recovery process, and for better or worse, there has been no more attempts fpr a week. Busy as hell with my summer work-12 hours daily.

Roughly day 13. After two months my exs send me a message. More came today.. Kind of hard to ignore them, just thinking that i'm missing chances with her. But they have all been concerning a safe small talk-where i;m working & such, and knowing that shes taking such a safe route as a excuse to get ahold of me shows me these little attempts by my ex represent nothing. Still kinda hard to keep this up.

I realize how much progress i've made. Do I still think about her? Yes...almost daily i it nfact. Do I still get down somtimes thinking about what I loss? Yes... But after all this time(3 months), I have just stopped letting ruin my life. I have accepted that most likely were done and over with, that I have to live life without her. After two months + of complete silence from her, I come back from a pub with a few friends, only to see a msn txt from my ex. Had some info regarding my new summer job, and she sent me a message asking me where I was working. After two months, after having removed me from her msn/facebook a few weeks earlier..she does this? I spent a good 30 mins asking myself * * *. Why now? Why after all this time try & get back into my life. (for record-anyone with any ideas why-love to hear them Ignored it. Was worried at first that I had just screwed up all chances of us getting togather. But a few days have passed, I know it was the right choice. What difference does the details of my daily life have to her? She did everything in her power to remove me from her life. Besides, if she really wanted to make another go of it, she well contact me again. If not...who cares? I'm going to keep going towards the same goal i;v e had since she cheated on me/brokeup with me-moving on.

Lost track of days...think i;m roughly at day 10(attempt #3) Ex readded me to msn, and sent me a msg after 2 months... Trying not to reply to it.

Day 7 Been in a rough patch since I found out she removed all contact of me(facebook& msn), but besides that have been keeping myself busy a hell with work & with friends. Still I gotta say, that little action on her part just has me on the verge of actually contacting her for the first time in six weeks.

Not even sure if I can ever get through 30 days. I keep screwing up, even though my ex seems to not have a second thought about me. Found out by accident that she removed from her msn, facebook(I added her agian.. ), and that just caused me to be back at square one. Fighting the urge to contact her, I have myself half thinking that this is her way of stopping herslf from being the one to buckle and contact me. I realize its more then likely her just moving on, but I just can't really convince myself.

At roughly 6 weeks NC, the only real moves have been her removing contact with me.(removed from facebook & msn recently) Its to the point where I just don't believe she gives a **** enough to contact me, and I won't hear of her till some random meeting when we both get back to school in the fall. This thought is simply reinforced by a complete lack of attempts at contact, and her still being with the guy she cheated on me with. (reblound relatiomship? Its been two months, with much of their relationship by distence-if it were just goling last pass the honeymoon phase it would have already.So I guess they are togather, and if they breakup she well simply find herself a new man in the fall..)

Well i'm trying to decide if I should add my ex to facebook. Found out when cleaning out my msn list that I was no longer on her msn list(or facebook), kinda freaked me out. Made a mistake of adding her after I found this out. Best I can figure is she rejected my request, then added me herself a day later. Do you guys think I should just accept? It seems like a idea, but it also seems just...well a very odd thing to do. (as close to contact we had in a month & a half) Sad times I know...

Day 1. 20 days of NC out the window. Checked a site that allowed reverse checks(see if people you have deleted still have you on their lists) to help clean up my list...and I noticed my ex had deleted me. Went ahead and checked/saw that she had did the same with facebook.. Sadly that little action has me feeling like complete ****.

Oh I make changes all the time to my own facebook page. I had it going months before the breakup, and she only started it a week after we broke up(had "in relationship" in her status...later updated with the guysname attached) I have only checked her page a few times(its breaking NC so...14 days), if your not willing to count that i've already passed the 30 day challenge.(where your ex isit attempting contact..sadly its pretty easy..)

Day 13(5 weeks since she attempted contact..) Kinda depressed. Th weeks keep going by, and with zero attempts at contact(who knows, maybe my facebook page is a daily visit for her), the fact that she really isit going call, that we really don't have a chance of getting back togather is sinking in...and it bites. Only thing left to do is fake it till I make it. Speaking of which-SD/anyone, do you recommend blocking them to the limited profle(can only see name & a small version of profile pic) on facebook, or just leave it be as regular friends?( don't check her page)

Day 10(would of been a month..facebook) For past week i've been busy as hell, work, new city, etc... Athough I was still kinda taken back at her not trying to contact me(1 month since she last bothered to text me, 1 1/2 since breakup)), I barely had more then a passing thought of her(mainly about the fact that I would of been with her for the rest of the summer now had we not broken up). That is till last night. A d9ssapoining night has me on the edge of contacting her, or at least checking her facebook to see if her & her new bf(the guy she cheated on me with..) are still togather. If so..they made it past that little honey moon phase... Good times, bad times...