(this is long, but very important, plz gimme some advice!)
ok, where do i start? me and my girl have been goin out for almost 2 years now, like all relationships it has its ups and downs. There were alot of times where i thaught "shes the one" and alot of times which we had those silly break ups. Im not gonna make her look bad or only give u my side, but basically im a very overpossesive person with her, but thats ONLY because i cant handle the thaught of losing her, so the smallest things can trigger a reaction from me, and this is causing alot of arguments with us recently.
On xmas Eve i read a sms on her mobile phone which said "i really miss u, i cant wait for u 2 be mine". from a guy (obviously). this crushd my heart into billions of pieces, because as we all know, a guy wouldnt say stuff like that, unless the girls flirtin a bit 2. she had only known him for 1 week. I was unbelievably hurt so we broke up, then she came out with all the promises that she'll never speek 2 him again, and all that stuff. And i gave her the benefit of the doubt, and i took her back.
Its been....2/3 weeks now, and things r still a bit dodgy. Last nite, i found out he had contacted her again. She deleted a sms in her mobile phone before i could read it and claimed that he was askin for one of her friends numbers. I trusted her and i believed her.
But what she doesnt understand (correct me if im wrong) is.....
when a guy causes the biggest argument of your relationship and causes us to break up, and make her break my heart,.......how cud u possibly stay in contact with a person like that?
We've broken up now. about an hour ago. I dont want to break up wid her, but i dont see another choice, because im really not happy with the relationship, shes started university this year, whereas i start next year, and shes made alot of new friends, and her attitude to our relationship has changed a bit, i just feel like shes not the same way she used to be towards me. i used to be her everything just how she is mine. but thats all changed, or thats how it feels.
i cant really tell her how i feel, because we always end up getting into arguments because shes always trying to come up wid excuses for her actions and im always trying to justify mine.
Its a matter of trust and my insecurity, i already know that, i wanna make the relationship better, but its always ME doin the hardwork.
I just want help from anyone, just so i can save my relationship.
PLZ help.....GREATLY appreciated!!