rutgerhauer

Cheers, good to know im not the only guy out there with this problem I dont know what im gonna do but feels good to share things.

Listen hun, Your apartment already is burned to the ground and you already lost your job. You aren't actually there. Not your heart and soul: it's dead and dying. It's a very serious business, your life. Yes, rent needs to be paid... but that is friggin' easy when you don't feel like you want to curl up and not deal with the world. When life doesn't seem to suck so much, you find a way, No Big Deal. You know you need a change. What is stopping you - honestly? Thanks for gym advice guys, its definitely the best option ive heard in months Much appreciated. The only thing actually holding me to my job is: A.) There's no way i'd get a job making this much money anywhere else with my lack of qualifications. B.) There's a lady who works for another area of the company that i made my ray of light and have a silly crush on. Although i realise that we're just friends i still have the childlike hope that somehow, something will happen between us. I'd hate to see myself if i accept that nothing will EVER happen with us and leave the job, seriously i dunno how id react. It scares me...

Ha Ha! Aye, i look at my brother and the problems he has with his girl and sometimes think im lucky;-) Seriously though its the companionship of not so much females but people in general that i yearn for. "The human was not destined to be a solitary species, such an affliction and straying away from natures plan stems from worldly wrongs on the individual rather than any desire within to be a lone wolf" Yeah, psychology rocks my boat too. Even if it sometimes twists the mind

I wish i could dude but rent needs paid man, its not so much the lonliness but seeing guys i grew up with and used to know look so happy and sucessful. Then i look at myself and realise i have s**t. The thing i hate the most is that ive accepted my situation, i mean i hate it but im so run-down i feel powerless to change it. Im kinda like a kid just waiting for someone to wave the magic wand and make it all better, this sounds bad but i sometimes think the best thing that could happen to me is that one day ill wake up and my apasrtment will be burned to the ground. Then i'll get fired from my job 10 mins later, so i'll have absolutely nothing left. Just to see how i react, to force myself to get things done.

Im a 22 year old guy with no friends, and feeling EXTREMELY lonelyfri I work in a job where ends. im totally alone and have no real qualificaions so cant just leave and get another job just like that. I also look so young for my age and this is a problem that has followed me my whole life and ive never found a way around it, i could easily pass as a 13-14 year old and im seriously not kidding when i say that Been to the doctor and he just patronises me by saying i should be glad i look young and will be thankful when im 40 and rubbish like that. This and the fact that im shy and awkward round people anyway make it impossible for me to find someone, just dont know what to do and cant go on like this much longer!??? Life feels more worthless everyday...

I really feel for you, when i was your age it was pretty much the same for me. my life was bliss until i was 12, i lived with my mum and brother and "aunt Gearldine" (my mothers lesbian lover, didnt know this at the time though). I visited my father every second weekend, didnt enjoy it that much as he'd being lliving apart from my mum since i was about 1 so i never had much of a connection with him. He'd spent five years in jail and this made him a real tempermantal sod, my brother and i were sent to live with him when my mothers lesbian relationship broke up and she couldnt cop. Then i went through two years of mental torture at its worst. From being mollycuddled by my mother to mentally beaten by a total disciplinarian, i ended up running away and eventually went back to live with my mother though by now she was going out with another woman and like you're mother had become a "scatterbrain" and an alcoholic. The woman she was dating was just my father in another guise as she ruthlessly kept my mother under control with constant put-downs and furious outbursts whilst doing absolutely nothing for herself and wearing my mother down to the point of being a live-in slave. This meant my mother had virtually no time for me and i was left with no friends to sit alone in my room after school EVERYDAY for 5 and a half years listening to my mum get walked over and treated like a piece of s**t whilst living in constant tension. This resulted in me moving out when i got a job and i found that years and years of isolation and mental torture have left me still in the mind of a 12 year old, still nervous and innocent thinking. Like time has froze, still have the same desires i had when i was 12 like go out and play with my pals, play the video games i had when i was 12, listen to the music frm that time... I live alone now and am almost 23, its probably too late for me to change but i REALLY hope you find a way through the darkness. Please dont do anything stupid, i have no friends and would be glad to call you one Be strong. Anthony.