xxoo_16

tomorrow night i am going to a party that my best friend is throwing she invited a guy i have a bit of a crush on i really want to at least talk to him and get to know him at this party to open up any possibilities for the future the problem is i am very shy so many people have told me that confidence is the most attractive thing, which i am afraid i dont have so how can be attracctive if i really dont have the confidence?

i guess i should also add that creative things writing songs/poetry isnt going to help me i used to write songs and play guitar but now it only makes things worse because i just get frustrated and i feel like i am not good enough and i really just want to make something good but i cant believe that anything i do is good enough

im feeling incredibly depressed i started cutting a little over a year ago. my parents once found out about a month after i first started i only had 9 cuts on my arms after that i switched to my legs i always wear jens so they never found out i have gotten much worse now i cut almost everyday it stilll is not enough now i feel so hopeless i was a member of some message boards for a band that i liked and we all got to be very good friends on there. it was better than anyone i had ever been friends with in real life lately it is changed everyone is fighting and there is so much drama so i just left now i dont even have them to talk to anymore i cant talk to my parents or my brother and ive only got one friend really but she is beginning to annoy me and bother me so much. i think im starting to hate her i dont know i just feel so lost i dont even know what to do anymore not even cutting is enough now i just want someone to be there for me i want to fall in love and make friends and just be able to be happy im just too shy and too hopeless to do anything i dont know what to do

i fell the same way right now. i cant give you any good advice since i have a really similar problem. i was really hopin this place would actually make me feel LESS alone-not MORE.......

i have days like that alot this will probably annoy you to, but: be alone, eat your favorite food, listen to your favorite music and just chilll for awhile away from the annoyingness

so for dancing. turn on some music and practice in your mirror. dorky i know but it works pimples-yeah try proactiv. that works too. i dont know about the stones though.........

i have not been cutting for long and i am ashamed that i do it. im sick of never being able to wear t-shirts and always having to hide. i think this girl i know knows about my cutting. i really dont want my parents to find out they hate me enough already i really need some excuses for these scars becuase i cant tell anyone please. i figure if i stop cutting and get a good excuse then it will all just go away eventually please help!