Lonleyboy

did you ever look into getting a diagnosis for Manic Depression, or something similar? My brother has manic depression, and exhibits similar symtom, though his moods change..

disguisedpixie, you can line 10 random people up in a line, and look at there faces. I bet you any money that you can find atleast one thing that u consider ugly on each of them.. be it a crooked or big nose, teeth, crossed eyes, short hair, skin, whatever.. when u break it all down, it's petty.. Break down all of your features one by one, you'll see that you are not ugly.. An Ardvark is ugly.. Beauty is relative.. Tho more people might say, a skinny white girl with blue eyes and blonde hair is beauty, but that's our culture.. any where else, or to another person, that might not be the pinnacle of beauty. those men who have interest in you are probably sincere and you should give them a chance.. there is nothing like a friend from the opposite sex boosting your confidence.. I wish that i had a picture of you, i doubt that you look like an Ardvark.. Beauty is skin deep, keep yo head up, this isn't really a big problem.. you should look at your self every mourning and tell yourself that you are beautiful, if u believe it or not..

I needed to hear/read that... I care so much about what others think, because i want to belong.. and honestly, If i were in someone elses shoe's, i'd be disgusted by me also, i'm also superficial.. It's Ironic.. So i do comfort my self, i find things that i like about myself, and concitrate on it, but it lasts for so long. like someone else said tho, 8 months isn't forever, i should just excersice, get some low profile job, and chill until i can really start a life.. thanx for your comments.. And to Cassiopia, I do want to look for a girl.. I had a friendship with someone over the phone for a while, until i revealed my little secret before meeting her.. after the secret was out, she abandonned me, so i'll just have to wait.. it really makes me think, when i finally do get it together, i should be a player or pimp.. Why not? because when i do get a girl, all i'll be able think about is if It were a year ago, would she have messed with me?

^I know.. i guess i was tryna say that i wanted a sex life. I wanted friends, I wanted to feel attractive and wanted.. and IMO, i am very hansome, it's just when I smile.. I didn't have the freedom to. And To APOLLOCREED, it's nice to hear about someone with similar problems as I, I guess i'm not totally alone.. and you're right, 36G's is very steep.. i wish that the dentist could some how void costs in extreme cases.. That's why it took my Family so long to get the cash.. It's been a problem since i was too old for baby teeth. I also hope that you can't find a decent solution, life can be messed up..

You know what?.. at first i wasn't sure if I was ready to share my problems with other people.. I hold this all in, and talk to no one (which may be another bad thing). this is the only website that i've posted issues of this on.. I was about to regret it, until i read the comments posted.. firstly, i greatly appreciate the quickness of the replies.. and also, each reply gave me some really good insight.. U are all wise and i can see my self visiting this site more often. it can play a good part in cheering me up on days when i'm real low (like today).. thanx soo much.

I have an extremely bad situation right now.. Firstly, I'm a young 20 year old man.. I should have everything to live for, I'm Healthy, All of my loved ones are still around, and IMO, i'm very intelligent.. But, i grew up with a physical flaw, and my front teeth never came out as a kid.. This caused me to still have my Baby teeth as i got older.. It contributed to my lack of sex life as a teen, and I never smiled or wanted to be social in anyway, because when i open my mouth, people would find out. At age 14 a doctor pulled out two of them, in hopes that my adult teeth would rupture through in it's place.. It was a failure.. Mind you, my family never was rich, and i never had enough money to fix the problem.. So, on through my teens, I secluded myself, had minimal girls as friends, got my heart broken a few times, and got into a little bit of crime to fit in with a in crowd.. During my teens, i only had Sex with maybe two girls.. I smoked weed all day, dropped outta school, lost friends and associates, then started staying in the house around age 17.. I went back to the denist in August of last year, they honestly didn't know how to fix my problems, so they took out all 10 of my remaining front teeth and tried to pull them down with chains, they took away the bone underneath, and sliced and cut into my gums numerious times (Obviously this alone made me completley miserable.. It is now nearly 1 year later, and only two adult teeth have came through, so now i'm going to go ahead and get some implants.. But, since august, i've been missing teeth.. I am 20 years old.. there is no way possible that i can fuction in the real world. I spend on average, 23.5 hours inside of my house every day. the 30 minutes outside is when i'm getting a blunt, cigar, or fast food to eat.. My energy level is ridiculously low, I'm extremely depressed beyond beliefe.. I only live for my parents, i see no other reason to.. My life and childhood seemed to be robbed from me because of a physically defect that i had no controll over. I know of no one who's passed a job interview with out smiling. I know of no 20 year old who's missing teeth with a sex life, I don't even know any other 20 year olds who's missing teeth.. People have it worst than me, i know, but most of them commit suicide or kill others. I don't know what to do, i'm suffering soooo hard right now, i can't believe it. i'm losing my mind in this house, and i'm slowly growing numb and bitter.. my insecuries are endless, i dwell on B.S.. I'd say that when i get my implants, which won't be for another 8 months atleast, i can start some kind of numb existence.. But i've been out of commision for soooo long.. I haven't had any sexual relationship in atleast a year, before that, 2 years.. I don't have a single friend in my life, and i just don't know how to move on. i don't know how to interact, how to be happy in this world outside of my mind and my house. i need help, i went to see a Phsyciatrist, but he brushed me off, and gave me some drugs, which i don't want to use.. i just don't know what to do, or how to think anymore you guys.. I hope this wasn't too long to read.