keaton lover,
I'll be honest, even though i only read about 2/3rds of your post,I dont think anyone can really help you on this. There is some things you sort of have to go through at your age so that in the future you'll "get it". You need to start by taking a deep breath. Your very intense about the whole thing. Man, if I can feel it, you better bet that he can too. My advice is stay cool. Go the Hard To Get route with him. Hang out with other friends, go to the mall, take your mind off things, off him. Dont blow up his Instant Messanger, or e-mail. Relax. He'll either come around, or by then you'll have found something better. Maturity is important. (but unfortunately it only comes with age or experience.) Good luck with your experience.
