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On 1/20/2022 at 6:28 PM, Cynder said:

My Dad's wife divorced him when she found out he had been cheating and got this other woman pregnant.  And my Mom had big dreams of being a nurse which she blame me for not following through with.  She actually told me more than once "Oh I could have had this great life as a nurse but you had to come along and ruined everything."

Good grief they were both just POS human beings, and then tried to stick you with the bill!

Not sure what you think of curses, but do you think that maybe they (or the entire awful/evil situation) put a curse over you and your life?  

I'm being serious... curses are literal things that have to be broken by someone powerful enough to do it.  And there are steps and such that have to break that dark magic, that black aura etc... all of that can be healed.  

But I totally understand if you just think it's crazy 🙂  I used to think so, too, but now I've had enough experience with it all that I know it's not something to mess with!

🤣 Thankful for the irony !!!!

I had a dream last night that my Grandfather, the only one still left here on earth, went to Heaven... only I actually SAW all of it in the dream.  His face looked like a little boy's, he was just so happy and joyful and excited as he was running into my Grandmother's arms (they were very much in love here on earth).

Then this morning, not 30 minutes ago, my mom called me and told me he went home last night (!!!!).  I always feel so odd whenever these visions or dreams are confirmed, but it's a gift.

I'm not sad at all... he was trapped for 10 years in a body with Alzheimer's and this was a beautiful release!  He was just SO happy in my vision/dream, it'd be insane to be sad about this (imo).

Oh death, where is your sting?

Oh hell, where is your victory?

Oh church, come stand in the light! 

Our God is not dead, He's Alive, He's Alive!

It sounds fine. Be kind to yourself.

I think it will take awhile to heal from this.  Be kind to yourself.

It also helps with financial decisions lol.  Obviously

https://www.learnreligions.com/spiritual-gift-of-prophecy-712397

Another update from last year's journal:

I've realized there's a word for what I am... Clairvoyant.  Or the gift of Clairvoyance.

Last year I briefly mentioned in that journal that I have always had this ability to just know, or even, "see," things about a person, even when I've practically just met them.  It's always freaked me out a little to be honest.

I gave the example last year of a couple who had divorced (when I could, "see," they shouldn't have), and I saw a vision when they were in our house meeting us, that they would have had a daughter (they only had one son), and they would have been so happy and felt complete as a family, stopping their family growth after her.  Instead, they divorced, and they would never experience what could have been.

I saw all of it in an instant and felt deep grief for them.

Anyway... that was in last year's journal.  More clairvoyant experiences have happened to me to further confirm I have this gift.

I met a woman over the summer... and somehow I instantly had this overwhelming feeling she'd been molested as a child.  It was nuts!!!  Of course, whenever these things happen to me, I question my sanity a little, because my brain is telling me something I can't know (right?).

But I was right!!!!

3 days later we were talking again, and she ended up confessing to me (without me prompting her AT ALL) that she was sexually molested by her grandfather when 3 or 4 years old (!!!!).  

And I was thinking, "Whoa!!!! I totally felt and already knew this!"  It was yet another confirmation in what has been many confirmations of this gift.  But somehow I didn't know that it had a name.

I also knew or had strong suspicion back when my BIL/SIL were pregnant, that they were under a curse (I think his whole family on that side is to be honest).  It's very sad, but they've done it to themselves by engaging in black magic and witchcraft, etc.  

16 hours ago, Seraphim said:

I am trying to struggle out from my mental health right now. I am swinging from apathy  to rage and everything in the middle. I went to go Christmas shopping today and realized I had forgotten to take all of my medications. Some guy cut me off and I was running out of road. I was so angry I wanted to continually ram his pickup truck with mine and punch him in the face . Obviously, I didn’t do that but even thinking it is over the top .🥴

My mom is texting me hundreds of times a day with every little issue. Nothing I can actually do one thing about whether I was here or there. I know she is in mental and emotional free fall right now but I am barely functioning as well. Oh God 9 more days of work for the year. 
 

 

Ohhh Seraphim 😞  it's the grief.  Both your mom and you are going through it right now.  I think it's OK to only check your phone 3 times a day (morning, lunch, and then evening before bed) if that would help to turn off the sound (if that's possible for you).  

I know she needs you, but it'd be nice if you could find a way to balance that out with your own  needs, too.

My husband may get an award soon for something he did that was deemed heroic. This will be the 3rd one in his career!!!

Im so so proud of him!!! The overachiever, seriously, 😂 all I do is raise our kids!

Kidding... But seriously 😂

Something else I figured out recently... how ironic the molecular structure is the Star of David repeating over and over, and then to find out recently my husband is part Jewish (DNA wise).  My mother's Polish relatives were Jews who escaped Poland, both orphaned, they fell in love and married each other... a beautiful story of survival.  But that means we're both part Jewish... DNA in both of us... the quartz Star of David repeating over and over again... how interesting and mystical.

9 hours ago, Batya33 said:

Some people don’t like receiving gifts and she may not have it in her budget to spend money on a gift for you. Why a candle ?  Does she love candles ?? I know it’s a typical gift but it’s the sort of thing people put in a closet somewhere like bath soaps or other giftie type items.  If she loves candles then sure. 

Agree with Batya. Some people don't like gifts. I don't like gifts... Not sure why lol. But I love giving gifts. 

Its probably best to take her at her word and believe her when she says she's rather you not spend money for one. 

If she gets angry later and is like, "how could you not get me a gift," you'll know you have a dramatic one you can't trust on your hands 😂😃👍

Children's Zyrtec is usually a liquid (that's what we use). They have chewable tablets though. I'm curious why you're interested now.

https://epiphanyasd.blogspot.com/p/allergies.html?m=1

This website has some good information explaining some of the link and science behind this idea.

He's only six so he takes children's Zyrtec.

39 minutes ago, Jibralta said:

Does giving it to him calm him down or something?

I had a hunch and them confirmed it with research online, that allergies cause kids that are more sensitive (autism or sensory processing issues) to have a lot more trouble (behavior wise, in school trying to focus etc) and just made them overall feel awful. And medically it indicated they feel worse than in a normal allergy sickness way.  So it causes more meltdowns.  I'll have to look it up later, but there was a lot of confirmation that my gut feeling was right.  It probably helps with inflammation but I can't remember exactly what I found right now. 

So I looked up the rose quartz and found this:

Rose quartz has been used for emotional and physical healing and as part of unique artifacts and jewelry for thousands of years by cultures all around the world.

Ancient people, including Assyrians and the Romans, were probably some of the first to have used this gem for crafting jewelry around circa 800-600 BCE.

It also has been mentioned in Greek mythology. Specifically, its creation was noted in the story of the goddess Aphrodite and her lover, Adonis. Here, rose quartz is formed as a result of Aphrodite injuring herself on a piece of quartz as she was saving Adonis and their blood mixing; there is also another tale of rose quartz's use by Cupid inspiring other couples to fall in love.

It was also rumored to get associated with beauty and love by the Chinese, Tibetan, and Ancient Egyptian cultures.

Also found qualities that definitely represent my husband in the amethyst!  It's literal translation means, "not intoxicated," and he always avoided alcohol (he drinks a little on occasion now, but very little overall).  He's very calm, balanced and grounded... patient.  He can also see things I can't sometimes, solutions to problems, etc.  How interesting!

The metaphysical properties of Amethyst are calmness, balance, and peace. People also use it to eliminate impatience. Amethyst is one of the relatively few crystals that can be used with the specific purpose of improving intellectual and cerebral thought.

Something else I just thought of....

I have only two pieces of quartz jewelry from my childhood, that my mother got for me for some reason.  They are two hearts, a rose quartz one, and an amethyst one and they match.

My husband's birthstone is amethyst, and the light pink rose color always made me feel like it represented me, but I didn't really like the purple one (I never ever liked purple lol). 

But it just hit me how maybe it represented him, even back then.  I didn't know why my mom got me the amethyst quartz heart, she knew I hated purple, but perhaps it was prophetic in a way, as now it's precious to me and treasure how they (maybe) represent us both.

I studied Organic Chemistry I and II in college and loved it!  So the nerd in me is quite fascinated by this and to find out it actually has strange, mysterious healing (light and energy resonance) powers... just so odd

Also... found this link with healing and the mysterious qualities of voice power and resonance with molecular structures (this has been a lost art form that was used for centuries... I've used it and had remarkable effects of healing things):

Quartz molecular structure  .... it's basically like the Jewish star of David repeating over and over again... and when used correctly, resonates and vibrates and releases a strange energy (I know I sound nuts... sorry!). Just thought that was interesting

Something I wanted to update from back in maybe April (so from the other journal).... 

The allergy medicine did help basically eliminate the meltdowns our Viking Child was having (that made me suspect autism or a sensory disorder).  He maybe still has something like that, the doctor didn't think so last time, but a more recent time when she saw him, she said I should get him tested through the (free) school system just in case.  

But the allergy meds did work!  And I found a lot of research that led to that conclusion.  Wanted to update here in case it helps anyone else.

16 hours ago, Cynder said:

And yea, that's something I talked to my therapist about a lot when we were still together.  The long term risk of being with a trans person...  The suicide rate is high.  And living with someone who has that level of body dysphoria can be exhausting at times.  Plus bottom surgery ruins sex for a lot of them, and thus also ruins sex for their partners.  And also it was going to be really crushing seeing her go all the way through her transition, and then still suffer from dysphoria. 

All that is just so tragic.  I'm sorry.

Something I remember reading is trans people have higher suicide rates due to not ever really being able to accept their body. It's tragic.

So a long-term commitment probably would mean accepting that risk.

I feel similar to Batya; I wish I had something helpful to say....

8 hours ago, Jibralta said:

Oh my god, how tragic. I'm so sorry 😞

Thank you, Jilbralta, at least he isn't suffering anymore, apparently he was in lots of pain, poor baby.  It could have dragged on for decades so I do think this was a mercy. 

You're not alone, and I totally get it. 😆