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Hi everyone, I havent been on here for a while as I didnt think I needed too!!! how can seeing and ex again change everything, was a strange situation........ We were driving past each other and he decided to pull over (this obviously happens at the time I had just been to the gym and looked terrible) he was shaking as much as I was and sat in the car for 20mins just chatting, he then asked if he could come up I tried to make excuses but he came up anyway stayed for a couple of hours then left It felt like he had never left . He was telling me of times he had tried to make up fake e-mail addresses just to talk to me was really strange, a couple days later he e-mails me just basic things nothing heavy but its been 8 months and the way it ended I now know that he never does anything for nothing..... What does he want or am I just reading too much into it???

Im in England so I doubt very much that Id find someone to do that for me, Its hard enough to talk about sex over here let alone an STD, which is scary as Im afraid men will run a mile, guess the one that doesnt better hang onto........

Hey Im sorry for sounding so dramatic,I guess im still in shock Ive just found out and Ive been reading up on it and found there is no cure and I really can't comprehend going into a relationship again after the hurt the guy put me through without having to explain this!! I mean are there people out there who seriously wouldnt consider this a problem, of course I personally wouldnt risk someone elses health I just dont know what to do cant even see the screen for tears......

As if its not bad enough to waste 2 yrs of your life believeing a loser who all the time was playing me and seeing his baby mother, for him them to dump me and block all contact (which still really hurts) I have now found out he gave me herpes, I cant stop crying he must have known, how could he? Who is going to want to come anywhere near me now, I may as well give up the fight cos Ive lost

Hi everyone, I did post on here when i was absolutley devastated a while ago well I asked him to leave 5 mnths ago and he did back to his babys mother, who I guess he never really left (long story) I have had a few mishaps, i did ask him to come back at one point, and im a really proud person, so that made a dent in my pride a big one!!! but anyway i have sent a few e-mails since, not many maybe once a month, but he hasnt replyed, guess what im wondering is how does he do it, I have never given so much of myself to one person before, and I cant understand how he can walk away not even wonder how im doing and just not reply! I think a certain part of me still believes that maybe one day (sad i know) but my heart knows what we had was it really all that one sided and i didnt see it, any thoughts will be appreciated

Im just looking back in hindsight you can read my first post to see the whole story anyway here is the thing, My 'boyf' well ex, he moved out of house he shared with his baby mother and into mine, this is after a very long messy relationship where he has lied to both me and his baby mother, repeatedly, but this time he told me their house was up for sale so I decided ok Ill give it a go, It was fine he never offered to pay me anything after a couple of weeks out of curiosity I asked who the estate agent was, to which he replyed he didnt know, so I said it was impossible no to know he said 'oh yeah its for private sale'??? this sent alarm bells off, was he lying again? anyway when he had to babysit he told me he had to stay up there? why? I obviously went on one. Twice he stayed at their house, the third time He decided to come back that night but while I was on the phone he said 'its like having 2 cazy women in my life........ with all the lying etc before and the uncertainty I lost it I asked him to leave so he went back to his house, I tried to call him to sort it out he had no time etc, he did manage to arrive very late one night just time to have sex and go again, I waited around for 3 weeks still he couldnt make time, so I called him last week and asked about the house he advised me they had taken it off the market he obviously knew this when he came to my house previously to have sex, I couldnt help it I turned into a real physco, he had told me once that she knew about me and him and they had split up thats how I got involved previosly but he hadnt told her anything, this time I threatened to go up there and tell her everything, (I wouldnt do that mainly because of her and their son she doesnt deserve that), In the end I said if he ever comes anywhere near me or calls me again then thats what Ill do. I guess what im trying to find out is did I ruin it this time by asking him to leave????

Thanks Guys I guess I know what I gotto do its just doin it and Marketa I gotto say 10 yrs is a long time girl, if you can do it I guess I can too, Its been 4 days NC!!! the longest I havent spoke to him since he cut me off last time, so looking good!!!! and Im blaming myself at the moment for asking him to leave and at the we will get back together soon stage, but I guess thats all part of it I hope, thanx again this has really helped

I had a crush on him since i was 12 I met him properly about 4 yrs ago we got on really well i was having a bad time and he got me a job and sorted me out, he was living with his partner and their child at the time after about 2 yrs it happened i dont quite know why or how I was drunk and it was after a night out. I knew it was wrong and tried NC he wasalways so persistent anyway he left his partner we lived together for a while he told me she knew all about me. Thay had booked to go on a holiday together b4 this as it was their sons first holiday I agreed, turns out they were sopposed to get married on this holiday they didnt, but after he came back we had sex then he broke up with me stright after, he blocked my calls and e-mails, heartbroken. I took him back again Then one day he came banging on my door threatening me because someone had texted his baby mother telling her about me, I thought she knew!! So that was that again. He is so persistent though and im so weak with him. So this last time he moved in with me told me the house was up for sale etc, it was fine until he started staying there when he was babysitting... anyway he has left again gone back to her i have just found out the house was never up for sale. I cant take anymore or let go I havent eaten for 3 days or slept, is this worth it if i really believe he is the one?