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    Maybe I am different I have no desire now, but it is just temporary. I am so obsessed with her, I think I have an emotional dependency (what they call it in the books). I can't say I didn't love her before, but I just didn't care so much about her - didn't want to help her with her job (flower shop) cause of being too lazy, didn't stop myself from telling her she does not look good as she should (she didn't care much about her appearance), didn't stop myself from ignoring her for days when I got angry after a fight... Basically she was loving me with all her heart and was forgiving me for all my mistakes while I was just happy receiving that love and doing nothing to give her mine (what an as-h--e am I!). When she got fed up - she left me feeling no more love towards me. I got what I deserved, finally After all - there is some justice in the nature. Now I feel like s--t, feel I love her painfully and so on... But it is too late, I will learn from my mistakes, there is no other option
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    Well, getting back together is something that happens, rarely though. I personally know a colleague of mine that broke up with his girlfriend and a year later they got back together and got married
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    Well, look at my updates above I am calm now (don't know for how long though )
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    You're absolutely right! Especially in my case, where she "lost her feelings" towards me and now she wants to be free, by herself, and doesn't need anybody Well, guess what, b---h - you WILL be forever free as you wish! You WILL need me some time in the future, inevitably... I am now disappearing, though, and going to find someone who will care about me. I am doing it for myself, as I myself am the most important person in this world for me. Thanks for the encouraging words, Honeybal
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    Well, I even called her later. We talked for about half an hour with me begging for a chance, pleading, etc. Seems I am very stupid to continue making the same mistakes over and over. WELL - I am satisfied with the conversation anyway! I told her how I feel, I told her that she knows how to find me if she wants to be together and BLOCKED her from everywhere! I am now going NC forever! I am tired of hurting myself, if that b---h wants me back, she will have to go really hard for it! Let her burn in hell!
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    YEAH! A couple of hours after i wrote my post here, I sent her a FB message I can't believe how weak I am... She hasn't received it yet, but i broke NC on the 14th day... Such a loser! I hate myself
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    Day 14 I stopped myself from contacting my ex and telling her I love her, I miss her, asking her if she loves me and wants me back It was extremely hard, I even cried Don't know what's going on with me, I just can't forget her and feel like my life will be nothing without her. All that given the fact she no longer loves me. I just don't understand how can I bang my head into such a wall, a girl who doesn't love you anymore but you almost worship her and are ready to accept anything if it will make her get back HELP
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    Day 11 I try to keep busy with work and hobbies. Started cooking, continue going to swim lessons, try to go out with friends at least every weekend (did not do it when I was with my ex)... Had several "happy" days, but yesterday I got nostalgic and sad again
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