Me and my fiance have been together for 5 years and I love him with all my heart we are true soulmates, we have a 5 month of baby boy and our life was great until yesterday when I discovered that he went to a brothel about 18 months ago.
I remember the exact night, we had an argument and he went out with his mates and didn't come home until 4am in the morning minus $1000 in his wallet that he left with, he couldn't look me in the eye, touch me or even sleep next to me when he came home that night and I thought he was still angry with me. I used his cell phone the next day & I noticed a phone number that he called at 12 am the night before, I rang the number and discovered it was a brothel, when I confronted him he got all defensive, abusive and accused me of not trusting him and used the excuse that one of his mates must have rung there for a joke and as his mate backed this story up I put it behind me.
Yesterday a friend of mine told me that she had found out from her boyfriend - who is a good friend of my fiances - that he had in fact gone to the brothel with a friend that night, so I confronted this friend and after some pressure he confessed everything. I then confronted my fiance and he denied it and said he didn't know what I was talking about, even though his friend had already told me everything. After I questioned him further he changed his story and said he did go to the brothel paid the prostitute but couldn't go through with it because he felt too guilty, he said he is so sorry. But deep in my heart I know that he did have sex with her - it all adds up - why does he have to insult my intelligence by lying about it, he says he's sorry but can't even admit what he's really done, I just wanted him to tell me why he did it. I told him I don't believe him and told him to leave.
Now I am totally and utterly heartbroken, I can't understand why he would do this to me. Our sex life was always amazing, we both have a very strong drive and we are both very adventurous in bed, he is a very generous lover and we always satisfy each other and even while I was pregnant our sex life did not change. He always tells me how happy I make him in bed and there is nothing else he would want from me.
So can someone please tell me why he would go out and pay for it when he could have come home to me, I always thought that men only went to brothels because they don't get sex at home, or because they are bored with their partners or they want something more adventurous. I now feel so let down and hurt, he has totally destroyed my self esteem. I am attractive, slim and love sex so I don't understand why he would do this to me. He used to make jokes at his friends about going to brothels and I know for a fact he hadn't even visited one before me, so why would he do it now.
Am I overreacting over something that happened so long ago, I just don't know anymore, if he admitted to it and told me why maybe I couldn't forgive him but right now I am totally devastated.
If anyone out there can give me their views on why he did this it would really help.