KayDreamer

Hey guys. Ive been remembering a lot of what my ex said about 2 months ago about our relationship, when i asked (quite stupidly) if she could ever see us together again. Her response was "i just cant see it happening", even though our relationship was perfect and the reason she initially gave for the breakup was her own personal space. I want to know if any of you think its possible to know this, and whether i should have taken it as the ultimate leave-her-alone, even though its so dificult to move on from a person as great as her. We are friends now though even though i still have feelings for her, i dont tell. Thanks

Hello all. Ive posted before about my situation and how much i love/ed my ex girlfriend and how i want to be a part of her life no matter what. In the last few weeks i felt like she was in the process of completely throwing me out of her life, without any contact at all. However, one day she imed me and we had a good conversation. I finally figured out how to talk to her. It had to be confident, it had to look like i was doing well, which i kind of was because i was happy to hear from her very much. We ended up hanging out just as friends and it was great, we laughed and talked and had deep conversations. It seems everytime something good happens i look at the negatives, which i shouldnt. First off, i dont know when we'll hang out again and second off it did hurt a little bit seeing her because she looked so attractive, as always. Anyway, i hope people can get something positive out of this and id appreciate it if i could get some advice on what to do next, but keep in mind that i cant simply make myself not love her anymore. I can mask it pretty well though, i think.. Thanks guys..

I was in the process of trying to become friends with my ex, as she said we'd be friends forevor and I always thought that meant a hell of a lot more than our relationship (even though i was soooo in love with her). I saw her at an event on Saturday, and it was cool because I talked with her as just friends and it was really nice and I wasnt thinking of anything else like our 2 year relationship. Today I tried calling, and her sister answered. Her sister was never a very talkative person and I never thought she liked me much, but she was talking for a while we were actually having a conversation. When I asked for my ex, she said she went out for a run but then i started realizing what im 99.9% sure was REALLY going on. I suspect my ex was right there and simply did not want to speak with me so put on this whole fasad as a polite way of saying she didnt want to talk. I politely asked to have her call me back and she said sure. I went online after and noticed that my ex was at home as her IM said she was watching TV and she wasnt idle. I know its crazy to jump to insane conclusions like this, but i have a gut feeling and i think its so sad to do that to someone trying to be a friend. Also, she did not call me back that night. I dont know what to do because it hurts so much when someone says youll be friends forevor and stuff like this happens. What do you think?

We've been broken up since October so thats about 8 months. She would hear me out in the past but doesnt want me to say emotional things to her anymore. Last time i tried was easter, and she said she "couldnt ever see it happening" referring to us getting back together. If i were to send her what i wrote, she would most likely never speak to me again. Im working on being her friend, so i can at least be some kind of part of her life and enjoy her company because i always loved being around her. My only hope is a miracle that one day things turn around, but i cant expect that. I appreciate your help guys. -Ken

Kathryn, you have no idea how much i miss you. Ive tried and tried to force myself not to love you, but its to no avail. At this present moment, I dont know what the truth is of what happened between us or how we went from being so close to so separated, or why youve said some of the things that have ripped my heart apart without any care. Im an ignorant fool, and i just cant make my heart feel what my brain knows- you dont love me anymore. Unfortunately, you are the world to me. I think of you so god dam much and how all i want is to see the person that loved me even one more time say "i love you" or "your my special lovvy" or that you think im cute and youll love me forevor. For the rest of my life you are my dream come true and if you ever come accross this, no matter when it is, i still love you and would do anything for you, despite the coldness you treated me with. You are the best thing ive ever known in this world and when my time comes to leave it, I will still be thinking of you. So there it is. I love you kathryn, even though i can never get you back.