Dagless

Crying in the shower again It’s like crying in the rain Crying in bed again You know I’ll never be the same And if you're in heaven then I must be in hell cus thats what it feels like being left here without you Its just like; The fire inside me won’t burn It’s like the world refuses to turn Life has a cruel way of making us learn And if I’m not dead this must be killing me instead All the visions of you running through my head And aint it a shame we never got the chance to do the things we wanted to I thought we had all the time in the world, we hadn’t a clue I’m still dreaming of you Waking up is the worst part Opening my eyes breaks my heart It feels like; The fire inside me won’t burn It’s like the world refuses to turn Life has a cruel way of making us learn And if I’m not dead this must be killing me instead All the visions of us running through my head

Thanks TOV, It's really about loving someone you can't be with for whatever reason and all the physical agony that goes with it which is only eased when you're lost in your thoughts and dream of them. I just really type out ideas then chop and change, sometimes I have an idea of how I want it to flow or come accross but other times it changes as I go along. A lot of the ideas don't really work and end up never being finished.

I love how the first part is like your mind questioning, wondering. It's Kind of reflective and a little sad and then the last part is you saying "You must be here with me because you have given me the strength to carry on". It's touching

If my arms can not hold you then what are they for? And if you can’t hear me say I love you then I’ll say it all the more If my eyes can not look on you then my tears will keep them blurred And if I can’t hear your voice then there’s nothing to be heard So take my hand and run with me To a place in my dreams where we can be Where we hold each other and never let go And we find it easy to let our feelings show If my lips can not kiss you then what are they for? And if you can’t hear me say I miss you then I’ll say it all the more If I can not laugh with you then I’ll cry instead And if I can’t touch your face then my feelings are dead So you took hand and ran with me To that place in my dreams where we’ll always be Where we’ll hold each other and never let go And we will always be together where our love will show

Thanks for the comments everyone. I don't write much poetry it doesn't really come that easily to me but I do plan to write some more.

I still see your face when I close my eyes to blink I still hear your voice when I try to stop and think I never thought I could feel so much pain Body beaten to its knees and mind insane And as the pain takes hold I let go of the tears I’m caught in the land slide of sadness and fears I never thought that I would want to die to be with you Willing time to turn back, wishing the truth was untrue But grief is just love with no where to go You have to let it in, let it out, let it flow A voice inside lets me know its ok to feel like this Cry for everything you lost and everything you’ll miss You never left my side I still feel your hand on my shoulder Your touch will keep me warm as the world grows colder I never thought I’d find myself at a crossroads with only one way to go Time will lead me away from the future we’ll never know So I’ll pick up my memories of you and put them in my heart Take a look down the road I have to walk, a new beginning a new start Death can’t kill love it lives on forever And now everywhere I go we’ll go together.

I told her, a couple of weeks ago now, we decided to stay friends.

I've known her for over a year. She is five years older than me and has a young kid but that doesn't really matter. I go round her flat and we talk about all kind of stuff, we have a laugh. I've liked her for a long time, one night out we got abit drunk and we started kissing, On the way home she said she had ruined a good friendship and we decided to stay friends. Since then she hasn't really talked about what happened that night. But i think I've fallen in love with her and she told me that its not a good idea for us to have a relationship because shes no good for me. I was just happy to be friends, as long as I could see her I thought I'd be fine. Now I'm scared that she'll find someone. That would kill me. Now when I go round I offen sit there thinking I should just tell her. There was a time I was scared to ruin the friendship but now i dont care. I saw her last night and on the walk home I just felt awful, I hate myself for not being that perfect guy, I feel like the biggest loser on the planet. I can't go on feeling the way I do. what should I do?

I think you're right, in fact i think you're pretty spot on. In one text she sent me she said she was 'no good for me', i have to say i dont fully understand what she ment. I don't what to push for a relationship and end up losing her completely. Her friendship is worth alot to me. I've never really felt about anyone like this before. I will wait for her.

I met a girl, over a year ago now, at the place i was working. I was having a bit of a bad time, i had just missed out on my dream job & was feeling down ( I hated the job i was in, it was only her who made it bearable!) She was leaving and on her last day we talked for ages, but when it was time to go home i didn't want to leave. I told her that we may never see each other again so she gave me her mobile number. Heres where it gets complicated, she had just come out of a really bad relationship, to a gambling addict. And she was pregnant. she is also five years older than me. We became good friends, but during a rare nightout recently she kissed me said she loved me and started to cry. We had both had a lot to drink but we both knew what we were doing. On the way home we kissed some more, later she Kept on saying how she had ruined a good friendship and since then she hasn't really talked about it. We have gone back to being friends, but i think about her all the time. I don't know if she ment what she said and just thinks i don't feel the same way, or it was just the alcohol. I don't know what to do.

How sure are you that this friend only wants to be a friend? I Know this girl, who I like alot, and I'm think she knows how I feel. Or maybe she just surspects the truth and she is just to scared to do anything about it just incase shes wrong, either way I would be more than just friends if she wanted to be. Dont give in to hate, hate lead to suffering.