Omar_how_creative

All I can recommend is to go for it! If I would get a chance like that, I would be the happiest man alive. But I won't, so I'm the saddest man alive. Anyway, if she's having second thoughts, and if you still love her, then you have a future together. Because I think she still loves you.

Hi, I probably can't help, but I know how people feel better when they know that someone took the time to read their posts and who actually care. Just wanted you to let you know. I hope things work out with your girlfriend.

Hi, man, I feel even worse now reading all the REAL problems people have. I kind of feel stupid thinking of the issues I have. Actually, I shouldn't really have any -well, maybe just a few. I just need to vent myself I guess, cause if I don't, I'm really going down. My ex girlfriend left me like July last year. I had to leave the US because my visa expired (German, ex student)…..I thought everything was going well, besides the fact that I couldn't get my work visa after graduating. We held out for 10 long months while I was serving in the army over here. Then 3 more when I went back to see her. So anyway, in the end, she leaves me, and ever since I feel like my life has become senseless. So I start writing and begging her to take me back. Beginning of this week I get an E-Mail that this has gone way too far and that she's happy with some other guy and god knows what else. Man, I felt like jumping out the window. Though I don't even blame her, because I'm an idiot at times. Fact is, I had to stop watching my favorite show "Kind of Queens" because it reminded me too much of happier days. I am so unhappy over here, although I have a pretty cool job and all, and I tried it with other women, but it doesn't work because I think of her like 24 hours a day, even in my dreams (and that's the worst, because the next morning you wake up and think the dream was true until reality hits). So sometimes I think, if a loaded gun was sitting next to me, would I do it? The answer used to be "no", but lately it's turning to "yes" more often. The only reason why I haven't done it is because I know I would break my family's heart as well. My grandma would kill herself, because she already lost a son in a car accident a few years ago. So yeah, my issues really aren't issues, and yet, I want to end it all. Man, life sucks, and I ask myself how I deserved this. Never done anything bad to others, always honest, hard working. And this is what you get. Wow. Thanks GOD! Thanks for everything………… Anyway, thanks for listening.