MasterT Posted March 12, 2007 Share Posted March 12, 2007 I've started noticing that as I move on more and more and let go from my ex, a fear has started to take it's place... I've started to become afraid of committing to someone... I am not entirely sure what has created it, because I've never had this problem before. I think it could be connected to the fact that my parents are in the midst of a divorce, coupled with my ex leaving me for no apparent reason after what I believed was a happy relationship for a long time... Now I'm slowly getting the idea in my head that I don't want anything to do with relationships, yet at the same time I really want to find a loving relationship with someone. It's this paradox that started small, but has been nagging me more and more throughout the day. I think to myself, that I can do everything right, yet the person may leave me anyways, so why commit myself and allow myself to get bashed in the end? Why not just keep my heart out of it, so that when it does end I don't get hurt as badly? But then I argue with myself that truly that isn't what I want to do, it isn't right, isn't fair to the other person, and I really do want to commit 100%. I guess right now I'm really confused. I mean I took some big steps today to move on and now I'm feeling some backlash. I don't really know where this is coming from... I've never had these feelings before... I just feel lost. Help? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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