A year..And still can't forget

[The Mask]

Hi all eNotAlone'rs!

 

It's been a year since I last spoken to my ex..Maybe more maybe less time, I lost count..

Anyways some brief review of my problem : Been together for month, best friend since then for a year (with me madly in love with her) and now a year of NC..

 

Now I never ever gotten over her actually..Still 24\7 with her on my mind..But the last 2 maybe 3 weeks I'm in depression, I want to contact her but my ego is just way too high, I want to call her but at the same time I don't..I really just want to ask her how she's doing thats all..

 

Anyways, those 2-3 weeks have been hell for me..I get the same feeling after we broke up and when I begged her to come back to me (well,thats a different story). It hurts like hell as you probably know..But these feeling got stronger, I mean an year ago I would just feel my heart is about to explode, nowdays I feel the same but It's getting harder for me to breath..I get panic attacks and It's the first time I ever felt that way!

 

I never had those feelings! I mean yeah, I get nervous from time to time but I never expiriensed the harden breathing thingy..And most certainly not panic attacks!!

 

Now I'm not asking for advice on should I break NC or not, I'm asking this if this is normal..I mean it's been a year!

[sunday13]

Did you break up with her or the other way around?

[The Mask]

Technicly, I did..Because of my ego, and..My shyness..Well mainly because of shyness..

 

Look, I'm really sorry but I just don't want to talk about how we broke up..But in short, I really regret it..Truly regret it..

[sunday13]

well if you were the one to break it off, it's up to you to try get your ex back! if you really regret it, go for it. no guarantee your ex will go for it, but it's your job to repair what was broken.

[The Mask]

Thanks for the advice but I dindn't asked for it

I asked if it's normal the way I feel right now.