I am having a bit of an emotional meltdown today

[renaissancewoman101]

I don't know what is wrong with me today. I feel like curling up into a ball and crying my heart out. I feel like my life has no meaning, nothing. I feel trapped in a cycle that I can't get out. I know I sound like I am whining about life and I probably am. The weather is great outside. Sunny, etc. I need to do laundry and a buncha other things. I probably wont. I am so lonely right now but I shouldnt be. I want to talk to someone but I dont like calling people and bothering them. I probably overdrew my bank account for the 10th time this last year and half and will have to deal with that. Ugh!

 

I am shaking and very nervous again. I dont know what I want. I dont like to be like a wet mop and a Debbie Downer. I can't be like this always. I probably will go out later.

 

I dont want to feel all alone. I always do.

 

I dont know what I am looking for either.

[Lady Bugg]

Awwwww RW, (HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSS))))))))))))

 

You know it IS ok to feel down. No need to apologize. Just be down.

Whether the sun is shining or not....it's ok to not want to do anything.

 

One thing I do when I'm down is jump on the treadmill (if I have time)

and I really work up a sweat. If I'm EXTREMELY edgy I run on an incline...

and that makes me work harder. It is very effective for me. Sometimes

I'll jump on my bike and ride for hours.....RW why don't you look into

doing something that requires physical activity? Like dance classes or the gym? I REALLY think you'll enjoy it once you start......and it's a natural way

to just feel better.

 

Seriously.....take a brisk walk...and see if it makes a difference.

[renaissancewoman101]

I am signed up to do water aerobics on Wed evenings after my clinicals.

 

Right now I am just stressed out and worried and want to call a friend to chat. I want to see my friend and hang out but I dont want to bother them. People work and have stuff to do.

 

I am just going through some weird things. I may go for a drive again, most likely up to my parents. I am not sure.

 

I am one of those people that HATE bothering other people when I am stressed out and lonely.

[anggrace]

Your not alone! I have many days when I feel like a giant turd. Lady Bug is right, its okay to feel this way!!! Go outside and take a walk , don't think about it, just do it. Thats a sure way to feel a little better Hugs!!!

[renaissancewoman101]

I may just go out for a walk or a drive. That helps me feel better.

 

I wish it was warm enough to go swimming but it's kinda chilly today and I wont swim in an outdoor pool when its chilly.

[HealingHandsWarmHeart]

Hey RW... i'm so sorry you are feeling down today... =(

 

i just wonder why you think that you are "bothering" friends when you reach out to them.... thats what friends are for... whats the worst they can say? I can't right now ..but lets make plans for Thursday ..or maybe later. right?

[renaissancewoman101]

I try not to be a nuisance to my friends. That's just how I've always been. A lot of times I try to deal with things on my own, but sometimes it just isnt possible.

[Hope75]

((HUGS REN)))

 

Hang in there, we are here for you.

 

Tomorrow is another day.

[renaissancewoman101]

I'll be fine. I am just having doubts about school and things and sometimes wonder if I should just give that all up and go find a full time job. At least then I would have some money and not be constantly overdrawing on things and creating havoc in my life, as my parents love to point out to me.

 

BTW, my parents were not really happy about me wanting to go back to school to be a teacher and give up my career as a tech writer.

[LONESOUL]

((HUGS REN))

 

I bet your friends don't coinsider you a nuisance at all Ren.

That is what friends are for sometimes~cheering you up when you feel down.

It will get better!

[hosswhispra]

Hang in there, Ren. Tomorrow will hopefully be better & bring you happiness.

 

hosswhispra

[renaissancewoman101]

I am actually doing better now. I went out today and did some things and talked to a friend and that helped a lot. I feel better to have talked out some of my frustration. I also went for a walk and that was nice.

 

I really need to go out more often, besides school.

 

I am SO looking forward to water aerobics class tomorrow night.

[hosswhispra]

I noticed that a walk really does wonders for me mentally and emotionally. It's like a natural anti-depressant or something. When I miss it (because of weather or lack of time) I always notice a difference (negative change) in my mood. That's wonderful that you're taking a water aerobics class. I did that once and it's really great exercise--without the impact on the joints.

[renaissancewoman101]

Hoss, I had my first water aerobics class last Wed and it was way cool. I like aerobics but it is less hard on the joints when its aquatic. Exercising and walking helps to lighten up the mood.

 

Talking to a friend also helps too. Having good friends is a good thing.

[hosswhispra]

Talking to a friend also helps too. Having good friends is a good thing.

 

Yes, I couldn't agree with you more, Ren. I am very thankful for my girlfriends.

[renaissancewoman101]

Today was a better day. Having water aerobics class really helped. Also the kids werent so crazy and acting up today. I need to learn how to discipline better without having an emotional meltdown myself.

[LONESOUL]

Oh thats so great Ren, I'm glad you are feeling better!

 

Take care!!

[AntiLove_SuperStar]

Life isn't worth anything ,at all.

 

The point is to leanr to distract yourself.

[Hope75]

Life isn't worth anything ,at all.

 

The point is to leanr to distract yourself.

 

AL,

 

I'm sad if you really think this!

 

It's a long time to sit around in something that means nothing.

[AntiLove_SuperStar]

Isn't it just? Thats the great shame!