A lesson learned....

[elithepi]

My head hurts.

I didn't think.

A couple days ago I got nasty on the phone with the ex as I was trying to be "friends" for the past 3 weeks.

Feel terribly guilty now.

Apologized on her message machine.

NCing it now.

Should have from day one, would of had a chance if I did from day 1.

But now I crapped all over any good memories she still had.

It's Friday and She's going to be going out with her friends in town for the Holidays. Woo hoo.

I ruined any chance guys, by not going NC from day one. I didn't let her wonder about me. I was whining and pining.

Then frustration kicked in and I snapped and pooped on any redeeming quality I may have had.

PLEASE LISTEN....do not initiate contact! Go NC.

I could have had a chance...a chance to at least feel better about myself.

I feel like scum....made myself feel worse.

Should have accepted and moved on. Now I'm some pariah.

The sting is so bad.

My head hurts.

I'm really ripping myself apart here.

[elithepi]

So bad, everyone's speechless.

Oh well, we make our own beds....

[EddieRentz]

ELi

I did the same thing for 3 weeks... cant change the past, you can only control the future...

Way I see it, you'll shock yourself and her through NC. You are going to learn that you are stronger than you ever thought you were every single day.

Right there with you brother

[sasha_faye]

I'm there with you, too. We can do this!

[elithepi]

Doing what I did is a sure fire way to make yourself feel worse.

I'm really hating myself now..Burned a bridge.

I'm just another one of "those people".

Importantly, though, gotta learn from it...and I'm too damn old to be screwing up like that...