dying inside

[impulse617]

Ok here's the story. Now there r these 2 beautiful girls that i'm related to (they're twins but don't look alike, u can easily tell them apart). Im not related 2 them by blood, just by marriage. My brother married there aunt, and idk wat that makes us but we just consider each other cousins cause its easier (even tho we aren't even close to cousins). Im 2 and 1/2 years older then they r, im a senior and in HS and they're Freshman (if it matters). Ive known them for about 5 months. I also work with them at a grocery store

 

Anyways I called one of them and told them how i felt. I didn't tell her right away, i was actually just playfully teasing her at first (2 like ease the tension and make it seem less serious so maybe she wouldn't feel as weird). Well she ended up figureing out it was indeed her and her sister that i liked (and i explained that i didn't want 2 liek 2 people but i don't control who i like and who i don't) She told me she feels a little weird cause we're cousins and the family might not agree with it, and i totally feel the same way. She hung up and said she would call me in 5 minutes but never did

 

the next day, I ended up texting one of them and we ended up trading texts. basically she told me that she felt weird and that there was nothing i could do. The last thing I said in a text was (pretty much word for word) "Look I just want both of u 2 know that I really care about u, as friends and cousins, not just crushes. I'll always be here 4 u and i hope this doesn't get in the way of our relationship. Ok i'll leave u alone now". She responded with "ok i understand" and that was the end of it.

 

In work 2day i didn't say anything 2 them and they didn't say anything 2 me which is how it usually is anyways since there isn't really any time to talk during work. But of course knowing me i thought it was because of all thats happened.

 

I just dont know wat 2 do with myself. Do u know wat its like 2 care about som1 (in this case 2 people) so much and they could care less about u? i could die right now and I bet u it wouldn't affect them at all. They probably wouldn't even be at my funeral. It just burns a hole inside of me

 

idk wat 2 do from here, im just hoping 2 hear good things (but dont let that influence wat u say). Be hoenst with me, i know they could care less about me, its ok u can tell me im right like i know i am.

[avman]

impulse I can hardly read your post. Our posting guidelines state that you should not post in netspeak (u know wat 2 care about som1).

 

Please write out your posts and do not use netspeak.

[Considerate Empath]

Well I'm sure the both of them care about you, but they just don't like you in that way.

 

This is likely - as you said - just a crush you have and it's nothing that'll last long.

 

Also, liking two girls (especially twins) at the same time and telling both of them that you have a crush on them at the same time is very unlikely to lead anywhere (except in your imagination of a pair of twins dating you at the same time~).

 

 

Best of luck!

 

//C.E.

[impulse617]

impulse I can hardly read your post. Our posting guidelines state that you should not post in netspeak (u know wat 2 care about som1).

 

Please write out your posts and do not use netspeak.

 

o sorry i wasn't aware of this, i figured it was fine since it is in most other forums. I will change it later because i have 2 go 2 work now.

[robowarrior]

I had no problems with reading your post. Anyway if i where you id just love then unconditionally , and well basically your not true family,not by blood so its not that weird. And even nowadays its fairly possible ,its not something i never heard about cousins marrying eachother. i just don't see how you could have more then 1, there's another danger, you shouldn't jump from the 1 twin to the other =\

 

So make a firm choice on what you want in life.

[impulse617]

i want them to care about me as i care about them, they're family and i do have unconditional love for them, I would do anything for them and I would always be here for them. I want the same thing from them but i doubt they even care about me.

 

I could die right now and it wouldn't make any difference to them

[Momene]

A 3-some with 2 twins? What a fantasy!

[confused25]

Well let them have a chance to get to know you first. I think it's interesting how strongly you feel about them in just 5 months. I think you're coming onto them too strong and you might need to back off and relax a bit because they're probably confused. The situation is also awkward because you guys are related.