No Alternative

[embracemydesire]

When you see a train off in the distance hurling towards you, why do you wait on the tracks? When you feel depression taking over your life, why doesn't one do whatever they can to stop it?

 

Often times in my life I've seen negative things potentially coming. Instead of doing everything and anything I could to rectify the problems, I started to worry. Worry turns to regret, regret turns to despair, and soon you start thinking of why you are even alive.

 

Some events in life are instantly traumatic and may cause suicidal behavior. The loss of a loved one, extreme embarrassment, going to prison, getting a terminal disease, etc.

 

But for the most part, it seems that depression is a slow and methodical occurrence. You break up with you girlfriend/boyfriend and you're sad. Sadness turns to laziness, you stop taking care of yourself, stop working/studying hard, stop doing what is fun, and the pain just snowballs. It's like you suddenly feel comforted by pain, the more the better! What can I do to make myself feel worse?

 

Crazy thoughts arise...if I could only take one pill or push one button and end it all, if only it were that easy...if I could blink and die, how fast would my eyes close?

 

You should welcome depression as a challenge, as a sign that you're not doing everything you can to thrive.

 

Sometimes your thoughts are so overwhelming you just don't care. I've never had a real relationship, I don't have any friends, I don't have a job or my job sucks, I'm ugly, I'm fat, I have a disease, I'm a criminal, I'm a drug addict, I'm stupid, I'm insane, I'm not normal, I'm worthless -- why am I, at all?

 

However, there is always something out there. Something that makes you smile. Something that gives you hope. Even a year with 9-months of winter darkness has 3-months of sunshine. There's light out there.

 

You have to realize, you have to embrace that there is NO alternative. There is no reason not to eat healthy, to work hard, to grow, to learn, to improve your social skills, to evolve spiritually, to break through the chaos and live a life worth living.

 

It is never too late, it's never too soon. It's all about now. Suicide is never the answer, because there is a greater reward for those who live honorable lifes. Everyone has felt the way you have. It's all about choice.

 

Keep in mind, that 75% of the world, billions of people, would gladly trade places with you any time. Even in your lowest point in life, you are lucky. You have more than a chance, success and happiness are inevitable if you just open your mind to it.

[embracemydesire]

You are the most powerful drug. Your thoughts are the most powerful force. Your mind can create paradise or it can manifest chaos. But it's all about your actions. Thoughts can paralyze you.

 

It's all about what you want to feel.

 

I'm very depressed at the moment. Things just keep getting worse. But I know they won't always be like this. It will eventually get better, so why allow it to get worse? Change now, why wait?

[Spugly Fuglet]

as a mantra to your self you are 100%

 

"Things just keep getting worse. But I know they won't always be like this. It will eventually get better"

 

its like being out at sea, bobbing in the waves of a grate storm, the swell take you up and down, from time to time you lose sight of the land but and this is the big thing it will aways be there, then the strom starts to wane you can head to land once more. I find when my dark days come and they do, that I remember the highs, thows moments of shear fire where the whole world opens up, I now that locked away in the darkness of the sea I can still remember the light of the land.

 

waves we bob on waves

[AntiLove_SuperStar]

The fact that I'm not an AIDS orphan gives me ZILCH comfort when I'm suicidal...but I guess it may do for others.

[Bethany]

The fact that I'm not an AIDS orphan gives me ZILCH comfort when I'm suicidal...but I guess it may do for others.

 

Maybe not, but it's something you could use to bring you 'up' and stop wallowing in it.

[AntiLove_SuperStar]

I don't wallow mate, I'm swallowed.

[Bethany]

waves we bob on waves

 

Then float and 'bob' until the wave passes. Use no resistance and you will come up on your own.

[AntiLove_SuperStar]

That's good, I have no power for resistance anyway. Obviously if I did, I wouldn't be here. It's a Friday night, and in a parallel universe where I'm halfway to functional I'd be..oh I don't know, socializing, like I never do anymore because I'm eaten up with all this rubbish.

[Bethany]

Believe me, I do understand.

[AntiLove_SuperStar]

I have Bipolar I/classic. I just havn't had a manic phase for ages.

[Spugly Fuglet]

I had a bad one 2 weeks ago, slept 6 hours in 3 days tryed to sleep at 10pm just spent 2 hours looking at the darkness wile my wife sleapet got up was todo "make work" to keep my head out of the way, My wife found me at 5am on 2 computers going, one CG working, one posting here, the TV with text 24hour news/no sound and a CD playing v head phones and with a Maga comic on my lap. Now thats keep idal hands out of the way of the devil.

 

An old GF of mine used to say "Input Input" in the voice of Jonny 5 when ever I got like that, I have wore out so many old GF just fro doing 2 days up strate, sleeping 5 to 6 hours an night and jummping out of bed the moment I woke up.

 

The dark days when I was down like walking throw Jello (uk jelly) pulling my legs and head throw mud just to get up, Im lucky im up 30% down 10% normel 60%

or theer abouts, and I have only had a few really bad times when I have lost the plot. most of the time I can feel where Im heading and have tricks like TV,computers,CD,books,Pinting,Wright to keep my head fixed,

 

When down, art painting and wrighting, when up larning "Input Input" cram in all the info I can about some thing and see where my head ends up.

 

thats what I do dont know if it will help.