What Could Have Became

[hazeleyed]

I remember the days we used to walk hand in hand

But now days you don't even want to give us a chance

As the clouds come over the rain pours down on me

As my body soaks and I feel the rain the memories of you and I pass right before my eyes

 

I remember everyone telling I deserve better

I don't realize my worth

But I continued staying with you upon deceiving myself

I thought you would change, I dreamt of us being happy

But as years passed you remained the same one

 

I tried to get us help but it would only work for a few days

You would buy me presents and the make up to go with it

We would laugh for a evening, make love all night

The next day would be the same as every other day where the screaming would start

 

I thought something was wrong with me but the truth was it was you all along

I fell for your tricks, I gave in to your games giving excuses that I loved you to death

Sometimes when you weren't home I would pick up your clothes as tears rolled down

I wished we would be happy like we were before

 

However, its true when they say wishes sometimes do not come true

One day you came home all upset and raised your hand as you set

That day you not only left a print on my face but also left scars deep within

I knew right then and there I needed aid but lost the courage to find some help

Slowly the hospitals knew me by my name as I tried not to walk in shame

 

I looked in the mirror at times and remember the names you called me inside

I felt humiliated and insulted but I had no where to go

I needed an escape plan so one day after you left I gathered my things

As I took the keys my hands shivered and I felt fear deep down my spine

Although I was scared I kept going. It was like something that died inside

 

As soon as I backed away from the driveway, I looked at the brick wall house we used to call home. Now it was nothing but red bricks and over grown trees.

As I reached to my best friends house he opened his arms without a sound

I reached out and grabbed him and began the healing of all my wounds.

 

Today as I soak in this rain, I remember what could have became

[PRSOV]

That is a great piece of writing... and is true to so many of people's love situations.

 

A good chance to reflect on our past relationships and how they made us feel.

[yeawutever]

That's a very realistic perspective on how badly a toxic relation can affect you. Very nice poem there.

[neva_black_n_white]

I liked your work.

Its scary how many different perspectives and experiences there are in relationships.