Completely out of control

[Pips Estella]

On the surface, I feel nothing. I can laugh off a break-up in a second. But deep down, I think something's wrong. I can't get to sleep. I keep on sleeping with strangers I meet at bars. I feel oddly moved to cut my forearms and just generally do myself some damage.

 

I don't know what's happening to me. It is almost as if my brain is saying one thing (you're ok) yet I'm acting as if I'm a manic depressive. I cannot believe how detached I am - it scares the hell out of me. I feel like I could do anything and just not care. I don't feel anything.

 

I think it would be for my own good if I got some advice. Can you help?

[hk87]

I think you need to see some sort of counsellor to sort out all these mixed feelings.

Good Luck, Hk87

[skyjuice]

Hi

 

Do you have close friends?

Do you live with your family?

Value yourself. Why making yourself so miserable?

[amanda004]

you should definitely go see someone for help

if you feel nothing then there is something wrong

cutting yourself seems like the right solution, but it's not going to solve anything

[NoMoreWill]

Seek counselling.

 

I was rather angry after my breakup and not only wanted to destroy everything around me but I was also thinking of "doing myself in" as well. I think, though, it was partly related to the anti-depressant I was taking and how it was affecting my mood. I've since stopped taking the medication and have also sought counselling. I'm much more stable now and feel "content".

 

I still miss her terribly but it's gotten much easier over the last month.