A poem/song..''Dear mummy''..

[ILLuz1oN]

Just wondering if anybody can relate to this. Chorus not done yet.

 

For the first few years of my life, you were my world and my idol,

But most of all you were my mum and you were proud of the title..

When the bullies talked crap you were the one I could cry to..

Only thing I wanted to be when I was grown was like you..

It became clear over the years that life with Dad was tough..

I used to hear you cry at night I knew you'd had enough..

And I fully appreciate that it was hard as his wife..

But some of the stuff that I saw ma, it's scarred me for life..

I remember once I saw him pull a chunk out your hair..

And to stop him going for me, you pushed him down the stairs..

And he was so drunk he passed out, and blood poured from his head..

I hated Dad but I was scared because I thought he was dead..

But he survived..and even now I'm so haunted by that day..

And I wonder if you could've changed it, would it've turned out that way?

But you got rid of him soon after, because your divorce came through..

And after that day.. I never saw the same you..

 

Now once your marriage finally became a thing of the past..

You got rid of his last name and threw your ring in the trash..

Dad never made you feel like a woman, or wanted or needed..

So you searched for a man to repair the damage that he did..

Then we started to see less of you.. you'd leave for days..

Vulnerabilities on show, men saw an easy lay..

I was only 10 when you left and started goin crazy..

And left your 14 year old daughter alone to raise me..

We were evicted 8 times.. straight threw out the house..

No money to our name and no food in our mouths..

I was depressed so young.. I'd feel worse every day..

Because I was needin you more but you were driftin further away..

And I was searchin for the love that I lost in you..

You had another baby, but that kid cost you two..

Now I'm 18, and still can't forget the stuff that you did..

Coz when Dad went out your life.. so did your love for ya kids..

 

So ya remarried now, with a couple more babies..

And Imma strong person, prolly coz the struggle you gave me..

For a long time, I didn't believe in good, just evil..

And coz of my own damn mother I just can't trust people..

Ma, I loved you so much, you were who I idolized..

And I see the guilt behind your eyes that you try to hide..

See you gave me life, but it came with strain..

U gave me a shot in the world.. but you gave me pain..

And none of it seems worth it when I weigh it up..

Who'll want me if my own mother never gave a f***..

Now we've got no love.. and we've got no ties..

But I got your laugh, your hair.. and I got your eyes..

But I pray I won't get your qualities as a mother..

If I have a daughter..words can't describe how much I will love her..

With the bit of good i have in me.. Because I have evil too..

But then it's clear why that is.. coz half of me, is you..

 

 

[neva_black_n_white]

To be entirely honest i cant relate to anything youve written .. but i think its great. I tried figuring out how it would work as lyrics - but could see it..so i deffinitley think it should stick as a poem. But its great, i thought it came together pretty well . Alot surprised me (within what you writ - i didnt expect the turn around you displayed - because of its start), shows you how much you dont expect i guess.

 

 

Anywho, i like it.

 

Kell

[From_Now_On]

That was absolutely amazing.

 

There are some things I can relate to in this. But not to any great extent.

 

In any case: Brilliant.

 

-FNO

[ILLuz1oN]

Awww...just saw the replies on this. Thankyou very much