Kfizzle Posted March 10, 2018 Share Posted March 10, 2018 Im a 26F and my roommate I am crushing on is a 25M. We are parting ways soon because of the other people we live with. We were both talking about our heat sometimes not working in our bedrooms, and I jokingly said to him: 'We're getting hot flashes up in here, Andrew!' Cringe. Yeah not something you tell a guy you like. I've apologized to him just once before about one other Freudian slip I made (he is well aware that i have a speech impediment). I have only known him a few months, but he knows my sense of humor. But I dont want him thinking that I was even alluding to him having a 'man' deficiency' or ANYTHING of that nature. Holy f*** the thought of it traumatizes me. But I'm QUITE CERTAIN he knows I like him too, just from my outward reaction whenever I see him. My brain seriously just turns off around him and I start blushing like crazy and my eyes get wider, my pupils dilate like a damn ALIEN'S when I see him(no matter how much I work on it, the Freudian slips only happen around people I am insanely attracted to, and it keeps happening where i think i may sound like a complete idiot or a bit of a b**** by something i say) This unfortunate exchange happened tonight, and He actually didn't react at all. We just kept talking as normal, so i dont even know if he noticed. Ugh. I just look at him, think 'hot!' then indiscreetly put that word in a phrase to subtly let him know, finally chalking up the nerve to flirt in an indirect way (also hinting at how he makes me feel when I'm around him, my face gets 'hot' and it gets red as a f****** tomato) in the MIDDLE OF AN INTELLIGENT CONVERSATION, and then I bring up F****** HOT FLASHES????! And joke about HIM having them? Oh my F***ing stars. I swear as much of an antiquated soul I have, I know i had to have died in a past life as a result of making a Freudian slip like this and pissing somebody REALLY BIG off. Well , At this point, Should i finally come clean and tell him? NOTE: He usually lingers after a break or possible conclusion to our convos and then we just look at each other, smiling, in silence for a few seconds, and then convo resumes. He sometimes lowers his voice around me and his body language is always open when we talk, he laughs even at a couple of the stupid things i've said and is always interested in hearing about me. He just....seems happy to see me. He knows from how my face lights up, that i'm always happy to see him too. We dont get the chance to hang out much (we have completely opposite schedules) but with the past couple of convos, we did seem to get lost in whatever conversation we're having. We were both always smiling and laughing. Nothing more physical than a short hug has ever happened, which I'm more than ok with. :) But the main thing is: was this slip bad enough to send me into confession (i could confess in a humorous way), should I clarify to him the day after on the offchance of sounding creepy and overapologetic (ill do it in a funny, lighthearted non-serious way though), or should I wait until, like, the day we move out to tell him I like him, to save for awkwardness if he rejects? We'll only be living together for another month. Link to comment
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