forbiddenroses Posted November 30, 2017 Share Posted November 30, 2017 i was seeing this guy for about six months. we were friends before. i knew from the start he had some avoidant traits. maybe he wasnt the best communicator. but we eventually got really close and i was in love with him for sure. i felt like he was too, but now i dont even know. i know he trusted me more with time. he did tell me that i deserved better a few times. but i ignored it. i wish i hadnt. i see how hurtful it is later when things continue past their course. we briefly broke up and got back together. destined for failure i guess. we were going to have dinner a few nights ago. i went to a friends house before to play a board game. i just finished a degree! and finally had some free time to do something silly but fun. my ex called me when he was close. i went out to meet him. the moment he found out where i was, at my (guy) friend's house, he got silent and cold and told me he needed to be alone. like he was jealous or something. he said he hated that guy and why would i hang out with him? i cried, upset, how could I make this better? he was so off about this. i would never hurt him or cheat on him. but he just kept insisting he wanted to be alone and i eventually left the car. we were so looking forward a moment before to eat. . then he texted me being like its time for me to move on and so should you. and all his texts were like i just want nothing to do with you. go play stupid board games with losers and go on tinder. bla bla bla. how can he go from hot to cold in one instant? im completely bad in his eyes all of a sudden. its just such a ty feeling. i know he will never want me back. and i also know that if he cared he would have talked or explained. he couldnt even do that. all he says is in text. good bye good bye i just wanna be alone good bye. this has really triggered my abandonment/loneliness issues. im scared ill be alone forever. that im cursed. and im equally scared of getting hurt. i dont know how i could love again. and i feel so flawed, how could anyone love me? they all leave it seems. im hurting so bad right now. and he is just a brick wall. my friends are surely tired of hearing about this guy. all of them are happy in their relationships. i feel like im a burden. and i feel like in losing him i also lost a good friend. he doesnt care about me anymore. which is such a stark contrast from a week ago. any advice or input would be greatly appreciated. im tormented. Link to comment
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