fspro10 Posted November 25, 2017 Share Posted November 25, 2017 Hello. I am 19. For the past 6 years I've been suffering from a severe form of acne that has left me with very bad scars on my chest, face, back, neck and face. Throughout highschool I,ve also been bullied which has negatively influenced my self-esteem. I just hate the actual state of my skin and I just can't stand looking myself in the mirror. Then comes the bullying memories that make things worse, because I was a coward and I was afraid to confront the bullies. Right now, on a scale from 1 to 10 , my self esteem is at 0. I am still a virgin of course and I am afraid to get intimate with girls since most probably they will be disgusted. I feel so down that I just don't appreciate anything. In social situations I feel very anxious. Also, for the past 4 years I've been addicted to masturbation. I don't think masturbation was a cause of acne because acne started to show up before i was a pmo addict. I don't know but it feels very painful not being able to do what I feel like doing at this age, which is having fun. I currently have a crush on a girl from my class at uni and I'm pretty sure she likes me back but I am too inhibited and shy and stupid to tell her anything. I just feel hopeless and lost. I don't know what to do. I just finished an acne treatment that made things a bit better for the acne but not for the scars. I sometimes feel like things only get worse and worse, even think about suicide. People think that at my age you would only want to drink, get laid and just don't give a , and just having a lot of energy and enjoying life. When I hear that, I'm like " are they talking about? Why am I not like this?" I just don't know where to start from and what to do in order to gain confidence and just be able to live with a bit more joy and have no more regrets, since I already have a few. Link to comment
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