Still missing him

[Chon]

This is disheartening. I don't want to be feeling the same way I do right now, another four months down the line. I'm sorry you are in that place, Wolf.

 

He hasn't contacted and me and will not, unless I initiate something first. He is a good guy and though my NC request upset him, he's respected it. The trust and respect that we have for each other, even through the breakup process, has always been the foundation of our relationship. We were lovers, but we were also very good friends. And that is the part I miss most.

 

All people are different but I think it's still worth logically looking back one day and thinking "Yes. It did take a long time to move on, but that's because there was value in our relationship even if it wasn't perfect."

 

I'm only 2 months NC at the moment. I don't know what stage you are at, but I fully expect myself to be hurt once more when the realisation that it's truly over comes along. At the moment, I'm still hovering the fine line between denial and 0.5% hope.