Changed my number today...

[littleboyblue]

No more breadcrumbs for me.

 

It is bittersweet. A large part of me feels relief, that I no longer have a reason to obsessively check my phone, or to accept what little, if any breadcrumbs I receive. However, another part feels sad, it is finality in some sense.

 

I read a quote today, from Jennie Garth, the actress. She recently separated from her husband. She said: (on heartbreak)-"I just remind myself that the feeling of dieing, only lasts from 13 to 15 minutes, then I get over it."

 

That is where I am at, in my healing. Mostly fine, then random, painful, 15 minutes of pain. Sucks, but I am doing far better than I was almost 3 months ago.

 

I just have to stay strong, and not break no contact, especially now.

 

/end rant

 

My thoughts are with everyone here.

[jemoeder]

nice man hope to be able to say the same thing in 3 months minus 2 weeks.

 

actually i was thinking of changing my number too but for sure i aint ready for that all in good time no?

[Robin2904]

Good job! Changing your number is a good idea. I wish I had did it so many times before but I still allowed myself to get bread crumbs and to obsess over my phone for a long time- even though I wouldn't get anything. I was the worst because I could never ignore any kind of contact he would send me. I changed my number eventually and it was so much better! It's better to just not wonder 'will I get some sort of contact one day?' If you do then you don't have to know about it. Good job!

[ami7]

Congratulation! Just keep walking and don't look back! You are on the right track! Cheers!

[LillyLooWho]

You did the right thing. You are saying "I am not a victim" which is awesome. Give yourself a pat on the back.

[LonelyGirl10]

You should be proud of yourself. Congrats! I'm not even close to being to that point yet.