Things I need to do

[KG]

This depression is getting out of hand. I can take control of my life again.

 

I need to....

Make lists, to get things done, and not get behind.

 

To give myself credit, for what I've accomplished.

 

To quit having a pity party everytime something fails.

 

To give myself some "me" time.

 

To enlist the help of others.

[IphigeniaSaysHi]

Sounds like a great list. If nothing else, you have a plan and a goal. You can get better, KG.

[KG]

Sounds like a great list. If nothing else, you have a plan and a goal. You can get better, KG.

 

I hope so. I need some control of my life again.

[KG]

I have beat it all day. The weather helped, sunny warm, but it's making me optimistic I may be on to something here.

[BellaDonna]

KG, when do you have your appointment?

 

I hope therapy helps you. It really helped me when I went through postpartum depression in the past.

 

Getting outdoors does help an awful lot. The sun is definitely your friend.

 

Hang in there,

 

Bella

[KG]

Counseling tomorrow night.^^^^

 

Woke up a bit frustrated, but calmed down after making some lists and getting the day sorted out. So far, so good!

[tiredofvampires]

I'm glad you'll be going to counseling, too, KG.

 

And also that you've started a journal -- I think it's a really great way to ground yourself, even when you don't feel grounded. At least you can chronicle the ungroundedness, and weirdly, that seems to take the festering from an abstract place (your head) and puts it into black and white, where you can sort of deal with the contents better.

 

Good list, for starters.

 

I know how it feels to be in the doldrums....but there are always upswings.

[KG]

Got bills paid, finally. Went for a walk, very soothing, and can feel the stress waning.

[KG]

Counselor bailed at last minute, reschedule for next Wed. Friends are disappointing me. They know I'm having a hard time, promise to stop over or call...nada. Not even the decency to leave a message. Something else to deal with.

 

So, meh. Going to take solace in my son, the only true rock I have.

 

This will not beat me.

[BellaDonna]

Counselor bailed at last minute, reschedule for next Wed

 

Sorry to hear that. If it happens again you should find another counselor. Sometimes things/emergencies come up for all of us, but if it becomes a trend, that is not professional.