IGC89 Posted September 10, 2008 Share Posted September 10, 2008 Hello, i am new here and would like to ask some advice on how to stop feeling like i do about a certain person in my life.. i apologise for the length of this, but i feel i need to tell the whole story. Last year, in the final year of my college, i met a girl on my school bus... she was 15 (now 16) and i was 18 (soon to be 19) we met through a friend and we got on very well... it wasnt long before i fell for her... i will admit that. but i knew that i never had a chance with her, so i focused on being her friend, and put all my energies into that. However, my feelings for her grew and grew, and i was getting increasingly frustrated that i was only spending 20 minutes a day with her (on the school bus home) the problem was, that we didnt have an awful lot in common so we didnt really have fantastic conversations all the time. but i cared a lot for her... especially as she had confided in me. At the end of the year, she gave me a card saying goodbye, and i was touched to tears at the fact she actually did care about me (i had been pndering for months whether she did actually care about me or not) i had a speech ready to give to her on the last day, about how i wanted to keep in touch and how she could talk to me if ever she wanted and blah blah balh... but she didnt even sit near me on that last bus journey... i was absolutely devastated, and it took me a month to get over it. I have had no contact with her over the summer, as i hadnt managed to give her any of my contact details (she had my mobile number but i knew she wouldnt use it) I knew it was her birthday on the monday just gone, so i sent her a card with my e-mail address written inside... As monday came i felt like a bag of nerves... by tuesday, i still hadnt heard from her, and i was absolutely depressed to the core... i was distraught that she had 'chosen' to ignore me. However, it turns out she couldnt read my handwriting and contacted one of my friends... i Spoke to her on MSN last night. I was delighted to speak to her again, my hands were sweaty as i typed and i was excited... Problem was, my feelings came back... and i dont want them to... becuase I KNOW nothing could EVER happen between us... and more importantly, I WANT a friendship with her, becuase she is such a kind, sweet person. She is in a relationship too, which doesnt make me feel great. I want to have a good friendship with this person, but how on earth do i make these feelings go away... i am really struggling? Again sorry for the length and thank you in advance for any advice if you manage to trawl through this. Link to comment
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