independantgal Posted July 19, 2008 Share Posted July 19, 2008 I live in the UK, I'm 18, going over to America (Florida), my friend lives near there, hes driving up to spend some time with me. We met in October, online. Talked very frequently at first, talked on the phone a lot, then kinda drifted cause of money! And being busy but, got on great! I know hes genuine (won't bore you with details) We are just friends nothing more. Over the past few months though hes done a lot of growing and changing. He went out with a girl since he was 16, broke up at 21. When we talked he was pretty cut up about it, and I had emotional stuff going on at the time so we leaned on each other. But yeah we have both kinda changed, him more so, getting a job, moving on from his ex realising a few things you know? I can sense hes changed, but hes a good person and I respect him a lot Its just...sometimes I feel like I can't be my total self anymore...because he could think I'm childish...I think my whole perception of it is stupid...I mean he does a lot of the same things, partying etc and he isn't exactly totally mature. Sometimes values contradict a little, cause of culture but you know...nothing big. I'm not too sure whether...I feel more nervous because hes a guy, (I don't have that many guy friends) an older one then me at that (22 soon) hes also quite good looking...I don't like him any more then in a friend way...but you can't help but notice hes attractive! and it makes me a litle insecure...I've also opened up to him a lot with problems, and the idea of not having met him "properly" but having him know all that stuff about me...makes me feel...weird...or kinda closed off. ahh I'm just nervous! and I'm scared that if stuff is uncomfortable or whatever that he won't bother with me anymore, at all...to which I know I would be upset. The idea of hanging out with him is strange! After having kept most conversation to MSN, because of lack of money for calling. Any tips on how to loosen up? or points of view i could think about before meeting him i.e theres no need to feel that way because...etc I was thinking of suggesting going to universal studios theme park? and also bringing my sister along...so its less awkward....then I think if he gets on better with my sister...well i'd feel BAD! lol! Help? any other suggestions on what we could do to "hang out?" Link to comment
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