The Sky

[sarey]

Looking up,

the skies full of clouds,

big and small,

wide and tall,

colours and shapes,

looking at them in different ways.

 

Remembering the memories,

feeling the pain,

tears crawling,

going insane,

thinking about,

those particular days.

 

The sun poking through,

shining down,

looking around,

light everywhere,

comforting like a teddy bear,

I stop, and I stare.

 

Daydreaming zone,

I enter,

dreaming of the memories,

reliving them,

the tears pour from my eyes,

losing the fight,

looking at the sky,

shutting my eyes,

the tears keep crawling.

 

Crawling to the kitchen,

swollowing the pills,

10, 20, 30, 40, and more,

crawling back into the garden,

lying on the ground,

looking at the sky,

not a sound,

not a sight,

just a light,

walking towards it,

letting everything fade,

taking my last breath,

and I fade...

away...

[Daddy Bear]

Oh, Sarah... for someone barely out of nappies, you express your pain so beautifully. I wish I could find a way to take it all away and let you write about the good things in life.

 

(Yeah, I'm back, and I'm getting some help with the depression that I never could admit to having. More on that in another thread soon. And thanks for the support which meant so much to me.)

 

*huggles*

[AnotherBrokenDoll]

You really are an amazing person you know. So strong. I too would like to see the day where you are writing about all the things in life that make you smile. I'm sure that day will come.

 

Your poem is truly beautiful, you are such a talented girl.

[sarey]

thanks somebloke and ABD.

 

I appreciate your comments.

 

(And somebloke, I'm so glad you're getting help)